Like Denise said after each step, no matter how small or big, there is this..... sort of ease to buyers remorse. You feel a bit good about doing it, to the Shame & Guilt scream "What an Idiot You Are. You beat this before you can do it again... Why? Why...."
I'll guess you are not near a BIG city which likely has a for real Gender Clinic or a very good LGBT clinic with a good trans outreach. However, with some searching you will likely find a "local" support group. Without a doubt, for me, my support group and the couple of special angels there when I needed help the most, has been my second best coping mechanism. The first being undergoing a ton of personal growth and working on why I felt the way I did and learn how to think better about myself as a person. But all the "Self-Help" stuff only carries you so far. Nothing, IMO, nothing can compare to being a room filled with others whose feelings and lives almost mirror your own. And the co$t is just right... gas money. For me that was a 180 mile round trip.
If you contact state or county level Trans or LGBT organizations you may get some leads on therapist or support groups. Nearby college's may have an LGBT resource page. Also check your local PFLAG chapter for leads. Many do a good to great trans outreach. Talk to the therapist, most are out-of network to start with, especially Gender Therapist. Many times they will work with you on the fee. It pays to ask.
There is a marked difference between a therapist and a gender therapist. When I first started to take the Trans-Beast on for real, transitioning was absolutely off the table. Been there, tried it Twice. I had a TON of baggage I needed help shedding and to learn healthier ways to cope & think about myself. My trans-friendly therapist was OK for those needs. Today I see a Gender Therapist, yet most of the issues I have are only loosely trans related, if at all. Still, she has kept me somewhat sane and alive