Davina's diary

LizK · October 22, 2017, 08:02:50 PM

Quote from: davina61 on October 22, 2017, 01:28:47 PM
Wearing the size 20 now and not that loose as its shaped , makes it look like I have a waist and hips!!!!

Yay for waists and hips!!!!

It is great you put something on that shows your curves...at least the right ones!!

davina61 · October 23, 2017, 04:25:13 PM

have a shaping garment but its a 16 and a bit short in height so the press studs in crutch flap tend to pop!!!!!but holds the gut in. Shopping Sat morning so might look for a better one. Going all out for Halloween , false eyelashes, sparkly red nail varnish. Did look at false nails but they all looked too narrow so trying to not break any this week (fat chance)

Laurie · October 23, 2017, 08:42:18 PM

I hope you have a fun time for Halloween Davina.

Kendra · October 24, 2017, 09:24:03 AM

I'm in London 25-26 November. Might rent a car and drive north, I've enjoyed heading west of town during previous trips. If you have time maybe we can grab lunch or dinner somewhere - I'll send a PM.

davina61 · October 24, 2017, 03:36:26 PM

PM sent , table booked (might be my table!!!) Well tried the shape wear on ,its a 40B and after loosing a bit of weight the press studs don't pop. Still try's to slip down though so will tighten shoulder straps to see what happens. Best bit it hides the man bits and if I wear my grey leggings as well they are tight enough to hold the boys up. Just hope I wont be to hot dancing but then I think my push up bra looks a better shape, cant decide yet.

davina61 · October 25, 2017, 04:36:43 PM

So after getting undressed last night will not be wearing shape wear as scrotum was turning purple!!!!! Restricted blood supply I think. Gender GP has received the shared care documents from my GP but they have sent the wrong blood test results , another hold up GRRRRRRR. Wigs not turned up yet as well and wanted to wear on Sat Knackered tonight as only one in at work today, typical 2 managers and 1 worker, we are short 1 staff and then out of the other 2 one was on a day of and the other lad has had an operation and wont be back till Monday. Apprentice in tomorrow but he needs watching as he is a bit gung ho . Another day in paradise then

LizK · October 25, 2017, 04:49:36 PM

Quote from: davina61 on October 25, 2017, 04:36:43 PM
So after getting undressed last night will not be wearing shape wear as scrotum was turning purple!!!!! Restricted blood supply I think. Gender GP has received the shared care documents from my GP but they have sent the wrong blood test results , another hold up GRRRRRRR. Wigs not turned up yet as well and wanted to wear on Sat Knackered tonight as only one in at work today, typical 2 managers and 1 worker, we are short 1 staff and then out of the other 2 one was on a day of and the other lad has had an operation and wont be back till Monday. Apprentice in tomorrow but he needs watching as he is a bit gung ho . Another day in paradise then

Sounds like the "help" is just more work...

These foul ups, when you are trying to get yourself started on your journey, can be really frustrating...lets hope there are no more

davina61 · October 29, 2017, 05:23:53 PM

Well what a weekend, got dressed up and put on my false lashes, makeup and all. Ladies in pit control said I hade done a good job especially the lashes. Got talking to a woman that sat next to me in club house and found they (group) are from close to me. Gave me the thumbs up for being trans and we danced a bit.So drank a whole bottle of red , that was OK but then had 2 glasses of JD and lemonade. Mistake!!!!! went to the loo , a tardis, and was sick . Now that made me very drunk and was stuck unable to get up. My new friends came to look for me and helped me back to my motor and put me to bed. Tried to find them this morning but couldn't find them to thank them. My coat , new that day, and cardigan got left in the bar and went to find them this morning . Coat was hung up but cardy had gone, bugger I liked that one. Drank some water and coffee and had a fried breakfast to help the hangover , no headache but had the shakes . went and watched some racing and spoke to one of the lads I race against , he said are you going to change(wig and boobs and a bit of makeup) and I told him already have and he apologised but then he didn't know. Gave up and came home early as still felt a bit rough and a big oil down made up my mind to leave . drink and food at home sorted me . No trouble at all and used the ladies loos as well ,only neg was as being helped back to my car some one said it's the bloke in the orange dress when helping find my bag. Even in my state that was a stab to me which is daft as still a bloke in a dress.

davina61 · October 30, 2017, 03:38:52 PM

Day off today and had an "appointment" (her words) with the wife. Knew it was coming but she wants a divorce, she was worried I would want a share of things but as I lost £120k against the house told her no lets just split. Did get a hug and she said she was sad for me. Well I told her don't be sad as I am happy now and she agreed and told me I looked a lot happier . Writing a letter so I can get name changed but looked at paperwork and found solicitor should have signed a photo copy of birth certificate so will have to go back. Wigs have turned up , need trimming and the long one doesn't have a fringe like picture on web site but might cut OK . So light I cant feel it, the old cheap one was like wearing a hat. Now need a short one for work, well 2 as wash one wear one so my sister told me there is a wig shop in Worcester that does chemo patient wigs so if I can find them on hols next week and will see what they can do.

Megan. · October 30, 2017, 04:22:59 PM

Davina,

I'm sorry to here about the separation. It's one of those times that for those of us who face it, comes with very mixed emotions. Sadness at the loss of a loving relationship, but also (hopefully), an opportunity to move forward from things that may have been holding us back.

X

Laurie · October 30, 2017, 06:01:58 PM

Hi Davina,

Glad the appointment went well and amicably. It is a sad event in any case that you and her are separating. You have a good attitude toward it that should serve you well. I wish mine had been as friendly but I don't see how being served with a restraining order and being escorted from my own home as friendly at all. I was hurt, crushed, and what ever other adjectives you want to come up with for devastated. I did however survive and years later I was able to see that at the time my wife divorcing me was the best thing she could have done for herself. I'm not so sure about her actions after that but that is no longer an issue of mine.

This could just be something good for you both in time. Still I am saddened that it came to this end for you. I am here via PM or email if you are in need of a shoulder.

Hugs,
Laurie

Kendra · October 30, 2017, 06:13:53 PM

Davina, sorry to hear about your divorce - those are never easy but sounds like your separation is going relatively well. Sending good thoughts your way.

Kendra

davina61 · October 31, 2017, 04:35:10 PM

Thanks ladies, TBH not giving me any woes as it was sort of over 10 years ago in a way. Got a text to say letter is done so will pick it up tomorrow after work. Also got a message to say blood work had come through and they will be sending info about supplying HRT soon. Full time is getting closer.

Laurie · October 31, 2017, 05:43:01 PM

Yay to both events Davina.

Michelle_P · October 31, 2017, 09:57:38 PM

The divorce is a sad event in life, no matter how much we understand why. That's a big chunk of our past life written closed, but it is past, and now done.

Davina, I know you are handling this with your usual strength and aplomb, and the approach of HRT is a wonderful sign of a better future for you.

davina61 · November 01, 2017, 04:51:24 PM

Consent forms have come through for HRT, of course all electronic so now have to work out how to sign and send back and send copies of proof , day off Friday so that's the mornings work!

davina61 · November 03, 2017, 04:33:48 PM

Good news from ENT doc as he recon's there is no growth in my gland (we shall see) come back if you see any change, well that's why I went!!!!!! Got documents signed by solicitor so that's waiting to post and also managed to send forms back electronically to Gender GP . Went food shopping in my local German supermarket and they had thermal jeggings so cant resist , not tried them on yet. Also bought some hair bands and scruncie to fix back my new wigs from my eyes, slept in the long one last night and it stayed on my head and no glue. Work tomorrow and then a week off.Have an appointment at the wig shop on Tuesday afternoon to see about work wigs RLE closer, in fact wore my push up bra and breastforms all day and they show even with a coat on and got noticed but the red sparkly nails get noticed first and then draw closer looks . AS if I give a fig. Tuesday night is Hot Rod club meet and will tell them Davina will be going to Christmas dinner the following meet, have my outfit sorted, red/orange dress come tunic , leggings , gold shoes and bauble earrings .

Megan. · November 03, 2017, 05:39:46 PM

You got this, not giving a fig is the real trick. X

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Michelle_P · November 03, 2017, 06:07:05 PM

Quote from: Megan. on November 03, 2017, 05:39:46 PM
You got this, not giving a fig is the real trick. X

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Exactly. You do your thing, get your presentation the way YOU want it, so you're happy. The world can adjust. It won't stop spinning, and most folks are more concerned with making it across the street and not tripping than with the details of you.

Don't worry about them, just be yourself. And be glad that you've given that old biddy giving you the Evil Eye something to fret about other than her bum hip.

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davina61 · November 04, 2017, 04:57:50 PM

Have been wearing my breast forms full time (24/7 apart from showering) , that's 2 days at work and no one has said any thing. OK have a sweat shirt on but they still show especially when I have to brush dirt off that fallen from under a motor. Sandwich van lady didn't notice either till I showed/told her. Now I look at people ,always have, and notice stuff and maybe that's part of being trans? Also not banged the girls into anything , good practice for when I grow a pair of my own then. Started my hols tonight, wearing my designer dress , black tights, red lace nickers and my new long wig with a glass of red wine .Party on girls

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