My FFS results / Did he go far enough?

[Clefairy]

I finally got my FFS! I went to Dr. Cardenas because I like a lot of his work and he is very affordable. Today is the 2 week mark exactly. I had my hairline lowered, eyebrows lifted, type 3 brow bone (though I think he might have just done type 1 and told me he did type 3), Jaw contouring, chin contouring, fat injection to chin, fat injection to lips, and a lip lift.

The transop team is great by the way. Every single person I interacted with was wonderful to me and I felt so comfortable and at home in the recovery house. On one of the days when I was feeling a little better, I asked the chef, Blanca, if I could cook with her, and she taught me 3 traditional Mexican dishes in exchange for prep work. Vicente is absolutely amazing. He drove me all over and we got a chance to hang out around the house here and there. Just a bunch of great people in general. I will type up a full experience report when I have the time.

I am super prone to self deprecation and seeing myself as being hideous (conditioning oi). These last few days I have been particularly self deprecating and cruel to myself. I am not sure if it is in my head or if he did not go as far as he might have. Part of it is not having had makeup on since before surgery (I wear a ton of makeup in my day to day and I am actually quite good at it. I also very much regret not being able to afford rhinoplasty as I think I would pass if I had gotten my nose done (maybe?).

Anyway, I wanted to share the results.

Sorry for the awful camera, it's all I have had handy.

At the Airport with a close friend otw to mexico:



These were taken the day before my surgery in the recovery house, which is an absolutely amazing place:




Upon waking (immediately taken and then as soon as they took off bandages to clean me):




Day 9 (a bit emaciated from difficulty eating):



Day 10:



Day 12:



Day 13 :



Day 14 (30 seconds ago):

[amandam]

totally awesome! dont judge yourself at all!

[Charlie Nicki]

Girl are you blind? You already looked feminine before the FFS, you look prettier now. You are judging yourself waaaay too hard.


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[Allison S]

I think you pass already. What made you decide to not get a rhino? Just wondering not that you need it anyway from your pics

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[Ellement_of_Freedom]

So pretty girl!

[Clefairy]

I would have gotten Rhino, but I couldnt afford it :c If he had initially recommended it to me I would have saved for it, but when I had my consultations he said my nose was already a girls nose. Of course, he had not seen it in person. In person, he thought I could benefit from it as a detail that would bring everything together. But I went down with enough cash to pay for my surgery and take 6 weeks off work comfortably.

I plan on visiting him again as soon as possible for rhinoplasty and a bbl.

And maybe yall are right and im beating myself up for no reason. FFS brings up a lot of complicated emotions and gosh what a physical and emotional rollercoaster these last two weeks have been.

I would highly recommend transop, by the way. I honestly cant say enough good things about their staff c:

[Clefairy]

I guess its just permenantly stuck in my head that I look like a really feminine man 

I have like the worst self image in the world. I am trying to work on it, but dysphoria is hard for me q.q

Thanks for all the kind words by the way <3 <3 <3 <3 c: If anyone has any questions about my experience with Cardenas I would be happy to share anything.

[Charlie Nicki]

I guess its just permenantly stuck in my head that I look like a really feminine man 

That's insane sweetie. When I first glanced through the first pictures I actually thought your before pics were after FFS lol. Then I read the captions and saw the ones recovering and after. You are a beautiful woman, end of story.

[natalie.ashlyne]

I think you look beautiful both before and after you look stunning I wish I could look half as good as you, I also love your Hair.

[Roll]

I too thought the before pics were after and was amazed at how fast you healed. You are gorgeous!

[Clefairy]

Thanks everyone <3

That eased my spirits a lot. I am still very much recovering. I accidentally slept on my face last night  BIG MISTAKE. I am naturally a sleeping face down kind of girl, so sleeping on my back has been hard and I havent been sleeping a lot since coming off the heavier pain meds. Anyways I got really great sleep last night, too good to notice I was on my face, and now everything is super swollen again and ouch. q.q

[LJH24]

You were a gorgeous woman BEFORE surgery.  Go easy on yourself.

[Dena]

Two weeks is not enough time for all the swelling to go down. Just the surgery on my nose took nearly a year to fade. After the surgery, the general shape of the nose was better as the initial goal was to get the bump off it. Strangely, the longer I looked at it and watched the final shape develop, the more I liked it. Granted, swelling is slow to leave my body but you should reserve judgement for a few months and I think you will find the surgery was a bit more aggressive than it appears.

[Laurie]

Thanks everyone <3

That eased my spirits a lot. I am still very much recovering. I accidentally slept on my face last night  BIG MISTAKE. I am naturally a sleeping face down kind of girl, so sleeping on my back has been hard and I havent been sleeping a lot since coming off the heavier pain meds. Anyways I got really great sleep last night, too good to notice I was on my face, and now everything is super swollen again and ouch. q.q

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[Drexy/Drex]

Same here thought your first pics were after .....you got nothing to worry about your gorgeous

I,m booked in with Dr C for jan i'm glad he's good ( well thats why i picked him )...he's going to have his work cut  out for  him with me ...theres a pun there somewhere 😉

[Clefairy]

Thanks for all the information! Ill be sure to read through it when i get a chance. Ive been reading this website for almost a decade and finally decided to cave and make an account. Im really glad i did; the community is veey friendly.     

Ill upload some update pics in just a bit. Im still doing the whole kicking myself around over thinking i still look like a man thing. Bleh. I think i need to go to counselling to help with that. Like with most of us,people were very cruel to me when i came out and i just have this extreme self deprecating complex about how i look. I still havent even let my partner see me since gettimg home even though i know he will adore me regardless.I'm really starting to miss him too :c

[Drexy/Drex]

I like your  Prose "man thing "  lol that cracks me up i can use that 😂
Your looks remind me of Elvish woman ,honestly you look better than any of my cis female friends
I have dysmorphia which means i can never see myself properly so i sorta know how  you might feel
. I guess it is something you will come to terms with eventually i hope the sooner
😊

[rmaddy]

I hope the lip lift settles down for you quickly.  It looks good, but can feel wonky for quite a while, until the scar softens.

[Clefairy]

I have really bad dysmorphia too Markie. For what it's worth, you look gorgeous to me!

Thanks for the elf comment <33333 I really wish I were an elf honestly. I'm certainly tall enough x_x

The inside of my mouth is still so swollen and hard to move. I sound funny when I talk right now too lol and eating is so hard. It's kind of odd, the swelling comes and goes. These really dense, hard patches of what feels like flexed muscle keep popping up and vanishing along my jaw line. Its hard to tell how much swelling is still on my brow, but it is all very sore and it feels as if there is still a good bit.

I honestly can't wait for all the swelling to go down so I can see my new look. I have a strong feeling I'm going to want revisions though :c

[Clefairy]

Here's two pics from this morning before I go nap <3