I have identified as a girl for some time now. I'm seventeen but have felt this way for at least three/four years. I have been crossdressing, on and off, for about the same amount of time, and it always makes me feel more like I really am (not sure if that makes sense). I feel like am a girl inside but am too terrified to show it on the outside, many within my family are not very accepting to say the least, so I am very scared about ever coming out. I attempt to appear more male on the outside to throw them off any kind of scent, but I am not sure how long I can go on like it. I am already kind of scared anyway, since I have never had a gf and I worry that they may be cottoning on to the fact that something is amiss.
I know this post was a bit all over the place but please could I get some advice, thanks.