Lol come on Kim, we all know you badgered Emma until she finally gave in. As for you Emma, never look Kim directly in the eyes or you are done for. She said something about me being smart, I'm not buying it. It's a trick I tell you!
Soooooooo, you know by now Emma, I am gonna have a question, right? If you want to share, (maybe I missed this in the thread) why do you need to present male for a year? Is it time to prepare? Is it time to do a specific task, tie up loose ends?
I will say that the indecision is really a tough thing to deal with. If you have made up your mind, I am very happy for you. I really am in awe of the strength it takes to not transition. My good friend and I went through our journeys at the same time. I transitioned, she didn't. For me, I could see my progress even with all the trials and tribulations I faced. She was on HRT which helped her a lot, but because of loyalty to people in her life, she was always kind of caged, limited in what she could do. I know she wanted more. So, if you have decided to transition, consider that just maybe it is the easier path in important ways. At any rate, I'm excited for you.
As for your diving, wow that's crazy stuff. I think you have a good attitude about it. If you did it and enjoyed it, that's awesome. Sounds like you were thinking of scaling down due to age? One chapter closes, one chapter begins. You might get a similar adrenaline rush from all your transition 'firsts.'
Moni