Hi, Shanellax. I felt as you did 20 or 30 years ago, so I can definitely relate.
One thing I would suggest is to explore your cross-dressing. It is normal, especially at your age, to get sexually aroused when dressing. That in itself doesn't mean anything. However, pay attention to your other feelings. Is there anything there besides the sexual arousal? Do you feel more comfortable, more yourself, when dressed as a woman? It may take a while to sort this out, as sometimes these indications are quite subtle.
If there is nothing there but the sexual arousal, then it is a fetish. Not that there is anything wrong with that. It is just a word that describes your motivation.
If there is something else there, a level of comfort that is separate from sex, then you are some variety of transgender. It takes some more self-awareness to sort out those possibilities. If you are good with cross-dressing and need nothing more, then you are a cross-dresser. If you need more, then you may need some degree of transition.
I would encourage you to see a gender therapist. There is nothing wrong with doing so at this stage, just to help you sort this all out. Certainly if you find that you need more than just cross-dressing, then you really should see one.