One ting I like about this transition thing, I am now allowed to show my emotions, and I can cry whenever i feel the need and desire to cry.
I was raised with the mantra that a real man does not cry, and the heck, I adhered to that! I did not cry when my mother died, or when my father and my sister died. I was so good of controlling my emotions, I did not even know anymore how to cry!
And now I am liberated, I can cry and I am allowed to cry! it is wonderful to just let the motions flow out in the form of tears! I was emotionally dead inside, and now I am allowed to live, and the world beame a more colorful place for me!