I would love to say things are going better, but they're really not.
I don't really have the time or quiet space to attempt meditation. I was doing better with my shots the past couple of weeks, but today I'm back to being unable to do it again and I don't know why. I'm under a lot of stress, so I'm sure that's not helping. I cannot relax at all, no matter what I do. I wish I had someone else to come do this for me, because I desperately need to go to sleep but I can't go to bed until it's done. I'm so sick of this always happening. Going to try getting up and walking around for a while, though I've already taken a break once and it didn't help. I wish I knew why it was like this, especially since it didn't used to be.
I've tried talking to my friend about it, that actually made it worse. I've tried saving something nice for myself as a reward, but incentives don't make any difference. I try listening to music to keep my mind off it, but since I still have to watch what I'm doing carefully, it doesn't always help. And I have not yet spoken to a therapist, as the one I was trying to get in touch with hasn't replied to me and I haven't had the time to hunt down another one.