I have a plan beyond reaction now. I am in therapy unpacking this burden and I have a move date of mid september to mid october. I will live with my aunts girlfriend and continue therapy. She is a a powerful woman and will appreciate my domestic nature I am told
. Once I am established my wife intends to emigrate at the first of the year when she completes her continuing ed. My aunt is a retired government worker and is setting up my return for good. She has connections in the health service to facilitate first my heart and diabetes meds and then my transition. Met once in my life Aunt Maria is my fathers older cousin. It is her name I took on as Mariabella. For the first time I have family helping me.
Now getting through the crisis that has set the path. Deep realizations about how far .
Mariabellamy brother and I were betrayed by immediate family. resurging hatred of those long dead. Medical info which will change my life forever aside from GRS which considering the surgeries coming for congenital defects is just a piece of the big picture put in y lap when i came fully out to my self and a couple other close folks. The path led to medical diagnoses which will greatly prolong and improve this life. Now working through the baggage that darkens my light is ahead. All involved say given what I have revealed this will be my biggest hurdle. My therapist likened unpacking the trauma outlined will be like being in a blender,,,yay! it ain;t electro shock and halleluya on that ,right?. So there I am outlined in a post.Bless you who have reached out It is deeply appreciated with loving heart
