Beginning the process, walking on eggshells

[Min]

I am very much out of my element.

I have not talked about my problems to anybody other than the therapists I've been seeing for most of my life now.

I'm not sure what's safe reading the terms of the forum. I want to share but also want to be appropriate. Also I'm scared if any of this reach my "real life". As a public school teacher i could get crusified just for being me. Min isnt my "real name" for that reason.

The art that I make is NSFW very autobiographical and reveling of my gender dysphoria. (If you look at it through the correct lens).

My dark art and story will trigger people here, generations of neglect and abuse, physical, sexual, psychological, dark desires and fears, mental illness, PTSD, social anxieties and fits of depression.
 
All these problems I've quietly lived with unresolved, they eat me up inside.


Then add transgender and it's just too much. I have so much to share and this need to get it out there and be heard. Maybe someone might have a similar story and give solace that I'm not alone.

[Devlyn]

Don't worry, Min, we can give you a hand working out what's OK to post. Any Staff member will be willing to look at anything you want to post and advise you if it's OK.

It's good forum etiquette to add a trigger warning (preferably in red) above any content that may negatively impact others.

Hugs, Devlyn

[Lori Dee]

Perhaps, instead of just blurting it all out, you could read through some of the other members' stories. Then, if you find something you can relate to, just leave a comment of "me too" or even explain a little about how it is similar. You don't need to start with a page-long wall of text.

We have some helpful writing tips in the Welcome New Members area.

You are right to be concerned about it reaching public life. This is an all-ages public forum. So anyone, member or not, of any age can find this site with a simple internet search. Don't post anything that you don't want to be made public. Also, bear in mind the "all-ages" part. Sometimes it is difficult to discuss things while keeping it suitable for all audiences.

No need to feel like you are walking on eggshells. Just post in the proper forum and stick to the topic. I think you will be just fine.

[AdrianeAlready]

Hey, Min.

I'm new here myself and while I can't say "I understand" I can say "I get it". Without having walked in your shoes and knowing details, I can't understand. I can say however as an artist, someone that has struggled with clinical depression for a decade and just admitted in the last year to myself that I'm trans that "I get it". So you ain't alone babe.

How much to post is something I'd check with the mods on. As someone that has had sensitive jobs (or in just plain discriminatory industries) I'd say you'll need to sanitize what you post. Don't post anything on an open forum that will identify you directly. I'd even be careful posting anything that can add up to that (What type of school you teach in, what state or city, etc.). That being said if your stuff is okayed for posting (again I wouldn't post anything here you might have show off elsewhere connected to you IRL) I'd be really interested in seeing it. Might not be my style but the story behind it and the passion you obviously put into fascinate me. If you have some friends on here you could even PM with them directly regarding your art.

Sorry, I'm a problem solver so I offer solutions first. Just please understand that there's at least one person (probably many more) here that have an idea of what you are going through and sympathize. You aren't alone and this place seems to be a good place to share some of your burden. If you have a hurt and I have a hurt and we both share them, somehow we both end up with less than a full hurt between us.

~Adriane

[Min]

You aren't alone and this place seems to be a good place to share some of your burden. If you have a hurt and I have a hurt and we both share them, somehow we both end up with less than a full hurt between us.

~Adriane

Thank you so much. I appreciate you.

[Sephirah]

I am very much out of my element.

I have not talked about my problems to anybody other than the therapists I've been seeing for most of my life now.

I'm not sure what's safe reading the terms of the forum. I want to share but also want to be appropriate. Also I'm scared if any of this reach my "real life". As a public school teacher i could get crusified just for being me. Min isnt my "real name" for that reason.

The art that I make is NSFW very autobiographical and reveling of my gender dysphoria. (If you look at it through the correct lens).

My dark art and story will trigger people here, generations of neglect and abuse, physical, sexual, psychological, dark desires and fears, mental illness, PTSD, social anxieties and fits of depression.
 
All these problems I've quietly lived with unresolved, they eat me up inside.


Then add transgender and it's just too much. I have so much to share and this need to get it out there and be heard. Maybe someone might have a similar story and give solace that I'm not alone.

First and foremost, you're safe here, honey. This site is a place for people to reach into the thorns in their mind and work on removing them.

The staff here are consummate professionals. What I would say to you is speak from your soul first, honey. Get everything out that you're aching to get out. If there are parts of that which the staff feel need to be amended, they will do it tactfully and will keep you informed every step.

The important thing is that you feel you can have a voice. And you are most certainly not alone, okay? You are among a huge group of friends and you are encouraged to talk in a way you haven't been able to before. It's okay. You come first here.

*massive hugs*

Lauren. <3