Lauren's Lair: Here be dragons...

[Sarah B ✅]

Hi Lauren

Yes there is a BBC code for a spoiler:

Trigger

You write what you want here

Just click on the spoiler button and fill in the form.

Hugz
Sarah B
@Sephirah

[Sarah B ✅]

Hi lauren

You said:

And... I retract what I may have said in the past. Ash... you and Sarah B... you make bangs look so beautiful. They are not for me but you girls rock them! <3

How do you make out that I have bangs?  I only have a fringe.  I guess I have got to come over there and teach you how to speak proper English!

😀😃😄😁

Hugz and Love
Sarah B

[Sephirah]

My Dearest Lauren

I wondered where you had gone. You know I suffer when I do not hear from you for a while. Seeing your name pop up again is such a relief. I am so relieved and happy that you are still here.

Jess, Lori and Ash have already put it so beautifully. There is a whole lot of love wrapped around you here. Please soak it in while you rest and get your strength back. Hospital roller coasters and boiled potatoes are quite enough excitement for one year I think.

I used to eat hospital food and airplane food with no problem but when I was looking after my mum I noticed the degradation in the quality of hospital food so I really commiserate with you on that one. You are right the food would have killed you off if you had not got out sooner.

You know we have a couple of dates planned for the future. I am keeping those firmly on the calendar so you are not allowed to check out on us just yet.

As Ash said it would be lovely to hear a little more about what you experienced if it ever feels alright for you to share. If it is one of those things that slips away like smoke that is okay too. The important part is that you are still here with us.

For now I am just very glad that your stubborn heart decided to stick around. You are precious, you are loved, take care of yourself please, you are needed here and especially in my heart.

Best Wishes Always
Lots of Love Sarah B
@Sephirah

Love you, Star Girl. <3 I haven't forgotten. Truth be told, it's the people I've grown close to that anchored me. I don't know if the body works like that... but I want to think it does. There's too much to leave behind. Which is something I only really cared about now. Never really did before.

I honestly don't know how to put it into words. It's like.. all your life sharpens into a single point. You see everything at once. And then everything stops. Like... people say you see your life flash before your eyes. That's kind of true. But it's like you're outside of time. It's very very weird. Like you're watching a movie. Then it all stops. I was only out for a couple of minutes but it was like time didn't mean anything. Like the brain just forgets it. It's like.... hmm, you're watching a movie and someone presses pause but you can explore the whole scene. Then you see things, and people. I am almost sure it's a mental thing. As I say, I am not religious. There wasn't any angels or devils or whatever. Even though I am a fan of the Lucifer TV show.

I said goodbye to my mum... in my head. I didn't get the chance when she died. And my grandad. I was terrified of hospitals when he died. I didn't go to visit him. I know that hurt him, and I carry a lot of guilt about it. I saw them both. I think that was just unresolved things in my own head. My brain trying to tie up loose ends like the end of a novel. I think. But it was unnervingly real. They were okay. That made me cry. They were like... real. I am not religious but I do believe in the paranormal, to an extent. I really don't know. I think there's a lot we don't know because we don't know how to know. But the experiences felt real. It's all just... weird.

[Sephirah]

Hi lauren

You said:

How do you make out that I have bangs?  I only have a fringe.  I guess I have got to come over there and teach you how to speak proper English!

😀😃😄😁

Hugz and Love
Sarah B

Haha, yeah, that's what I would say, too. But I know a lot of the site is American. And for whatever weird reason, they're called bangs over there! I'm playing it safe, lol.

[Sarah B ✅]

Hi Lauren

Haha, yeah, that's what I would say, too. But I know a lot of the site is American. And for whatever weird reason, they're called bangs over there! I'm playing it safe, lol.

Those Americans have corrupted you!  You are English, get a hold of yourself.  What am I going to do with you?

Love and Hugz
Sarah B

[Sephirah]

Hi Lauren

Yes there is a BBC code for a spoiler:

Trigger

You write what you want here

Just click on the spoiler button and fill in the form.

Hugz
Sarah B
@Sephirah

Excellent, thank you, Sarah. <3

Okay...

Trigger

When I lost the use of my legs, I tried to end my life more than once. Three separate times. I was in hospital for two of them and got put on suicide watch because... I really didn't want to be alive. It was only down to some people who really probably hated me for making them have to keep a very close eye on me that I am still here.

They helped me more than I can ever give them credit for. Changed my whole way of thinking. But some things don't entirely go away and I am not as... full of light as most of you think I am. I still have a very, very dark half of myself. One that sometimes doesn't think it would be so bad to just give in to it all and try again next time. If there is a next time. It's only through sheer force of will and... making contact with some really amazing people that I don't give in and hope for better next time.

Thank you, Sarah. That's perfect. Please don't click on that. But it's there.

[Sephirah]

Hi Lauren

Those Americans have corrupted you!  You are English, get a hold of yourself.  What am I going to do with you?

Love and Hugz
Sarah B

I would say tea and crumpets but I really can't stand tea. I know, I am a heretic, lol. A good coffee, however, and I'm yours forever. <3

[Lori Dee ✅]

I would say tea and crumpets but I really can't stand tea. I know, I am a heretic, lol. A good coffee, however, and I'm yours forever. <3

YES!

Dark roast, brewed thick as mud. I don't put anything in it. Just eat it with a spoon... sort of.

🤣
 

[Sephirah]

YES!

Dark roast, brewed thick as mud. I don't put anything in it. Just eat it with a spoon... sort of.

🤣
 

This girl gets it.

Lori, you are my spirit guide.

For me it has to be Colombian. They make the best coffee. And trust me, I've tried a LOT!

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

I would say tea and crumpets but I really can't stand tea. I know, I am a heretic, lol. A good coffee, however, and I'm yours forever. <3

@Sephirah
I am an All-American girl...I do not have a good grasp of English food even though I have traveled in Europe,
Australia and New Zealand. 

My food and drink life involves coffee, lots of coffee, espressos, hot dogs, cheese burgers, Meatloaf, Hershey chocolate bars, Macaroni and cheese, Barbecue ribs, Apple Pie, Fried chicken, Chocolate Chip Cookies, Philly cheesesteak, New England clam chowder, Chicken fried steak, Chicago deep dish pizza, New York pizza, McDonalds, Chic-Fil-A, Burger King, Wendys, Dominos Pizza, Starbucks, Dairy Queen chocolate dipped ice cream cones, etc, etc, etc.

NOTE:  I am so very glad and happy that you have survived the hospital... you are a bright light of
happiness here on the Forum..
Thanks to your doctors for allowing us to enjoy your continuing fellowship here.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

[Lori Dee ✅]

For me it has to be Colombian. They make the best coffee. And trust me, I've tried a LOT!

Yup, Colombian coffee. I have also found that these quick and easy Keurig machines ruin good coffee. It brews too quickly. Slow brewing is the way to go.

The best-tasting coffee is brewed in a percolator over a campfire. If the weather is bad, a wood stove will do. It takes forever, but wowza, what great coffee that is.

[Sephirah]

@Sephirah
I am an All-American girl...I do not have a good grasp of English food even though I have traveled in Europe,
Australia and New Zealand. 

My food and drink life involves coffee, lots of coffee, espressos, hot dogs, cheese burgers, Meatloaf, Hershey chocolate bars, Macaroni and cheese, Barbecue ribs, Apple Pie, Fried chicken, Chocolate Chip Cookies, Philly cheesesteak, New England clam chowder, Chicken fried steak, Chicago deep dish pizza, New York pizza, McDonalds, Chic-Fil-A, Burger King, Wendys, Dominos Pizza, Starbucks, Dairy Queen chocolate dipped ice cream cones, etc, etc, etc.

NOTE:  I am so very glad and happy that you have survived the hospital... you are a bright light of
happiness here on the Forum..
Thanks to your doctors for allowing us to enjoy your continuing fellowship here.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

Danielle, I've seen you in pics with some of the magnificent Alaskan fish you catch there. Are you telling me you don't eat those things? Alaskan Salmon is like the best in the world. We pay silly money for the wildlife you have on your doorstep!

[Sephirah]

Yup, Colombian coffee. I have also found that these quick and easy Keurig machines ruin good coffee. It brews too quickly. Slow brewing is the way to go.

The best-tasting coffee is brewed in a percolator over a campfire. If the weather is bad, a wood stove will do. It takes forever, but wowza, what great coffee that is.

No, you cannot brew coffee too quickly. It's like, I assume, a fine wine. I don't drink alcohol, but coffee has to be loved to make it the best it can be. I have yet to have it brewed over a campfire but damn, that sounds amazing.

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

Danielle, I've seen you in pics with some of the magnificent Alaskan fish you catch there. Are you telling me you don't eat those things? Alaskan Salmon is like the best in the world. We pay silly money for the wildlife you have on your doorstep!

@Sephirah
.... yes, fresh caught Salmon, Lingcod, Hallibut, and stream trout.... and don't forget about our
Dungeness crab and Maine Lobster.

HUGS, Danielle

[Sephirah]

@Sephirah
.... yes, fresh caught Salmon, Lingcod, Hallibut, and stream trout.... and don't forget about our
Dungeness crab and Maine Lobster.

HUGS, Danielle

Yes. The seafood that makes British people re-mortgage their homes because it's just... the best.

One day I will cook an authentic toad-in-the-hole for you folks. Proper Yorkshire pudding. And Cumberland sausage.

Will put fast food to shame.

[davina61]

Just caught up, glad you have got through this XXX. That is the only way to make Toad in the Hole, decent sausage and home made batter cooked with lard!!!

[Charlotte_Ringwood]

No, you cannot brew coffee too quickly. It's like, I assume, a fine wine. I don't drink alcohol, but coffee has to be loved to make it the best it can be. I have yet to have it brewed over a campfire but damn, that sounds amazing.

Oh for me it's espresso brew every time. Made at high pressure with a thick crema. I did note when I was in the US that my hotel room had filter coffee- it was really nice.

I totally agree coffee over alcohol although the two mixed is something nice occasionally!

[KathyLauren]

I am just getting caught up on this thread.  OMG, Lauren, I am so glad that you are still on the sunny side of the grass, in spite of the hospital food.  I missed you, and I am glad you are back.

I am currently working as crew on a stage production of "It's a Wonderful Life".  After working my first 8-hour day in over a decade with two shows yesterday, the coffee discussion is particularly relevant this morning.  But the story itself is particularly poignant in view of your recent experience.

The world needs you, and I am glad we still have you.