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Started by CosmicJoke, Yesterday at 11:33:53 PM

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CosmicJoke

Hi everyone. To make a long story short I have been living full-time as female for 15 years. The only procedure I had about 13 years ago was a bilateral orchiectomy. I have been on hormone replacement therapy a little longer than that. I started it when I was 18 and really have no problems with passing as female unless it is divulged that I am transgender.

The thing that confuses me the most especially at this point in time is why my existence is so confusing to some people. Femininity was always shamed in me but I saw masculinity almost respected in some biological females that I know personally. It was a huge double-standard.

I guess you can say this is why I feel that sex is not the most reliable indicator of gender. I am looking at getting the vaginoplasty procedure done soon but I also don't believe it will really change the issue that I mentioned above.

I was just curious if anyone else sees gender the same way I do or maybe GCS was at the bottom of your to-do list like it is mine?

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VictoriasSecret

Hey there,

The issue I see is the labels we give ourselves and those from others.

What is most important to you in your life? How you see yourself or the perception of what others see or think of you?

Everyone's experience in transitioning to whatever degree is different even though there may be similarities.

You have to live with how you look and feel in life, no one else.

The have or not to have GCS is a very personal choice.

We make that decision based on what is best for us as an individual, not because of someone else's experience or opinion.

Advice can be given but at the end of the day, the final decision is yours.

Good Luck. 🙏

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CosmicJoke

Quote from: VictoriasSecret on Yesterday at 11:52:20 PMHey there,

The issue I see is the labels we give ourselves and those from others.

What is most important to you in your life? How you see yourself or the perception of what others see or think of you?

Everyone's experience in transitioning to whatever degree is different even though there may be similarities.

You have to live with how you look and feel in life, no one else.

The have or not to have GCS is a very personal choice.

We make that decision based on what is best for us as an individual, not because of someone else's experience or opinion.

Advice can be given but at the end of the day, the final decision is yours.

Good Luck. 🙏



Hi! Thank you for your reply. I don't think I've seen you around here before but that was actually very helpful.

Thanks again! I hope you stick around. :-)
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VictoriasSecret

I'm glad it was of some help to you. I have just joined Susan's place today so I'll be here for a while!! 🙏
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Allie Jayne

I understand it this way. Many of us have Gender Incongruence, and this is when our identity doesn't match our perceived birth sex. We all perceive our gender identity differently, and the more we align with our own identity, the less dysphoria we feel.

Many of us have a vision of what we should look like, and if we can match that vision, we will have reduced our dysphoria to levels we can live comfortably with. It seems like you are in this group. I am in another group, less concerned by my appearance and social acceptance, but possibly my vision is more about what I am inside. I didn't seek physical or social transition, but I did have a big dysphoria trigger with my genitals. GCS dramatically reduced my dysphoria, so much so, I suspect if I could have had GCS initially, I might not have needed to socially and medically transition and would have been happy living as a male.

So if you are in a place where you don't have significant stress for your genitals, it would only be for practical reasons that you might pursue GCS. Sadly, many of us look at other people and impose their expectations on ourselves. Just because other trans people get GCS, it doesn't mean that is right for you! Think about why you are considering surgery, and what is right for you.

For example, I had no desire to get breast augmentation. I have an issue with having foreign material placed in my body to feel more 'me' ( this is my hang up, I don't impose it on others! ). I had one B cup and one A cup, and this was making it difficult to buy bras. I was regularly being misgendered (which didn't overly worry me), and a trans friend persuaded me that my life would be better, for practical reasons, to get implants. I did, moving up to D cups, which better suited my frame, bras were easier to find, and I was misgendered far less. In the end, augmentation worked for me, but it had no effect on my dysphoria.

It's so worth working out what you need, and why, so you make informed decisions on what is right for you.

hugs,

Allie
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Charlotte_Ringwood

Heyya,
To me what you say makes sense. I think the feeling of gender and the presentation of gender can be two completely different things. You could feel totally comfortable in your womanhood and not change anything outwardly and be ok.

Others may get dysphoria from their physical appearance and this becomes important for them to change. But that's almost to say it's body dysmorphia caused by gender dysphoria in a way.

As gender is such a personal and subjective thing then people have a different set of parameters they see as defining their gender ranging from physical to their state of mind.

For me I turn this on its head again as inside I feel agender. I can't lock onto any gender. I'm just me which is a melting pot of personality traits that stereotypically span all genders. However I'm gaining huge mental benefits and euphoria from transitioning to female. But this doesn't change the internal feelings. Having surgeries for me will just make me feel happier about my body, and more at peace in my mind. But not essential by any stretch. I think a lot is about feeling that feminine softness, care and tranquility I associate with being a woman.

Charlotte 😻

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