Charlotte's scratch post

[Lori Dee ✅]

As for queerness I have my trans tattoo and wear rainbow beads, rainbow tops and loud clothing. I guess my queerness is shouting in rainbows and pink kawaii clothes.

Also note that you pass when doing so. No harassment. So it sounds like you have your place; you just need to get comfortable in it. And your Furry Meets can help with that too because it is social.

You are doing great. Just be patient with yourself.

[Laura Squirrel]

I honestly think I'm passing as get no comments, looks or anything.

There ya go. That's it right there. Once you can blend into the scenery, you've got this.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

There ya go. That's it right there. Once you can blend into the scenery, you've got this.

Oh blending in is definitely not my thing! I want to stand out loud, but stand out as a woman. I very rarely look like all the other woman around me! Get a bit nervy but then everything is OK. Occasionally look normal, but often more alt/kawaii or if more normal its  a bit more daring for my age!

[Laura Squirrel]

Oh blending in is definitely not my thing! I want to stand out loud, but stand out as a woman. I very rarely look like all the other woman around me! Get a bit nervy but then everything is OK. Occasionally look normal, but often more alt/kawaii or if more normal its  a bit more daring for my age!

LOL Fair enough.

I just want to be a boring chick. About the only thing I've been questioned about was some chick asking about what my A.C. shirt was and what it meant. LOL Other than that, I just want to fade into the scenery.

[ChrissyRyan]

Hi Charlotte!


Chrissy

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Hi Charlotte!


Chrissy

Heyya Chrissy, hope you're doing good?

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[ChrissyRyan]

Heyya Chrissy, hope you're doing good?

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I am doing okay except I am finding it hard to get much work done so far today.
I will try to make up for that tomorrow.  Actually, I already did yesterday. 


Chrissy

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I am doing okay except I am finding it hard to get much work done so far today.
I will try to make up for that tomorrow.  Actually, I already did yesterday. 


Chrissy

Awww I hope you feel a bit more on the ball tomorrow. Some days just need to be slower x

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

TRIGGER WARNING

No matter how hard i try i just cant like the ugly disgusting woman/thing I see in the mirror. I dont know why people lie and sau im not ugly when its obvious to everyone im disgusting. Just need to kill her off and be done with it.i need to find something  and i won't give up thus yime

[Devlyn ✅]

Charlotte, please call a hotline, clergy, a friend, anyone who can help you. Please. We need you around.

Hugs, Devlyn

[Devlyn ✅]

We have a list of help resources here:

https://www.susans.org/index.php?topic=112545.0

Hugs, Devlyn

[tammy753]

I agree please call someone. You need to talk to someone about these feelings.

[Laura Squirrel]

TRIGGER WARNING

No matter how hard i try i just cant like the ugly disgusting woman/thing I see in the mirror. I dont know why people lie and sau im not ugly when its obvious to everyone im disgusting. Just need to kill her off and be done with it.i need to find something  and i won't give up thus yime

No. Just....no. Please don't do that. Look, I know that I just came back here. But, please don't. I've dealt with suicidal ideation myself. More times than I can count. I almost split from this mortal coil on 1/10/25. But I stopped myself. Why? Because it would hurt people that I cared about.

Judging by your profile pic, you aren't ugly at all. I'm not kissing your butt, either. That's not how I am. If I say it, I mean it. Otherwise, I wouldn't be responding to this post.

I get falling into traps of self-loathing. I have done that many times. But, ya know what? It never lasts. I can be really down on myself in the morning, and by the evening hours, it's gone.

As others have suggested, please find someone to speak to.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Trigger warning

Don't worry ive cut my arms and feels much better for it. At least i know that  works to make me feel better

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Well at least i see a psychiatrist tomorrow with everything fresh in my mind. Nothing worse than seeing a mental health professional when you've been feeling ok and cant tap into thst feeling to convey it to them. I'm still scared, but worked with ai to determine my feelings and write them up

[Laura Squirrel]

Well, I hope that it helps you. I really do.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Well, I hope that it helps you. I really do.

Im not holding my breath considering the NHS and 2 star review the place I'm going has. At least i can say i tried before I finally end it

[Petunia]

Charlotte, take your phone with you to your appointment and show them what you have written.

Please take care. There are a lot of people here who care about you.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Charlotte, take your phone with you to your appointment and show them what you have written.

Please take care. There are a lot of people here who care about you.

Ive written everything down so I'm prepared.  I wish they'd section me and put me residential on benzodiazapines permanently! My doctor wouldn't give me them because id not be able to function at work. Great!

[tgirlamg]

Ive written everything down so I'm prepared.  I wish they'd section me and put me residential on benzodiazapines permanently! My doctor wouldn't give me them because id not be able to function at work. Great!

That no way to live beautiful sister!... keep chipping away at this and choose to find that amazing things await you on the other side of the way you see things right now... it can be so hard to know and believe that when you are suffering but... trust me... trust the other voices here that care for you and most of all trust yourself... You will find your way forward!

Onward Brave Sister!

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