Charlotte's scratch post

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Noooo don't tell me I'm AI...with my head I might start believing it, then who knows what 😀

Thanks Sarah! the FFS has healed nicely and voice just needs some tweaking, probably going to go to a voice trainer to help me refine it to its best. Theyll be able to tell me exactly what to do hopefully.

Charlotte ❤️

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I did it! Wish I had more feminine curves, but no one batted an eyelid.  I walked around everywhere and played mini golf like that too.

Did sting my toe on a weaver fish though.  Damn that hurt.

I'm soooo happy though!! My hello kitty one piece tomorrow 😊

[Courtney G]

That suit is adorable, Charlotte, and so are you!

Don't you just love looking down and seeing that - that bit of cleavage from *your* body in *your* bathing suit top? It's heavenly. I hope you're enjoying it fully. I think I might put on a 2 piece and get in the pool today.

[Stottie Girl]

Congrats Charlotte, I know that was something you have been wanting to do for ages! You look so happy.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Thanks Courtney. It was nice seeing that little bit of cleavage although inserts are still providing over half of my breasts in these. They kept moving around loads so hope too many people didn't see me constantly adjusting in my bra! It was lovely to finally do it but still a long way from being comfortable in myself. But 6 months that all changes ☺️❤️.

Thanks Sarah. Its been so long and finally got to wear that suit.  Ive had it nearly 2 years. I had my Hello kitty one I'll wear tomorrow  about 3 years. Finally confident enough to get out there 😻🩷.

Love both, Charlotte

@Courtney_G @Stottie Girl

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Anyone found that HRT has changed their skin tolerance to burning? I never burnt in boy mode and now I'm burning much easier. Not great 😥

[Devlyn ✅]

Irish here. I burn under fluorescent lights. 🤣

[davina61]

I still burn the same!

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Well I've definitely burnt and never burnt here before so something to be aware of.

Feeling body conscious this morning as I'm so flat chested in my Hello kitty swimsuit. I try not to let it gete down, but it makes me so dysphoric. Its one of the things that should make me look like a woman yet doesn't.  Thats still hard to deal witb at 15 months as a fully out woman.

Will try to enjoy my day as long as breast forms dont keep moving in my suit.

Charlotte ❤️

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Without breast forms or padded bra.

[Stottie Girl]

Get your SPF 30/40 protection on Charlotte. You are likely showing a lot more skin than usual. You will still tan, just without the burning. I can see your shoulders look burnt there. You don't want to end up with skin like leather and skin damage!

It is completely greyed over and rainy here, enjoy the sunshine!

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I loved wearing this one today once my dysphoria died down. Once again no weird looks or anything. Just got to be myself which felt sooooo good! Given a year or so I'll be exactly where i want to be and totally loving these experiences.

Once my butt sores are sorted i can go skimpy rather than modest!

[Lori Dee ✅]

They make swimsuits and bras with pockets to hold breast forms. It is a niche market, so you may not find Hello Kitty or other styles that suit you, but you never know.

If you are handy with a sewing needle, you could sew pockets into your swimsuits to keep everything in place.

Enjoy the beach!

[Laura Squirrel]

If you can pass while on the beach in swimwear, I would say that you've got this.

[ChrissyRyan]

Charlotte,

You came across as female by everyone there at the beach, you must have had.


Chrissy

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Why do i make such an ugly, deformed, vile woman that looks a sandwich short of a picnic with the visual appeal of road kill? Charlotte is a woman but looks disgusting and hideous with it.

Honestly i don't know why I wasn't aborted before birth.

[Lori Dee ✅]

Charlotte,

You need to talk to someone right now.

Call your psychiatrist. Call the Samaritans. Call a friend that you can talk to about this.
I doubt your fiancé would be pleased with what you are expressing here.

Please call someone right now.

@Charlotte Kitty

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

@Charlotte Kitty
Dear Charlotte:
  YOU ARE LOVED HERE!
❤️

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

@Charlotte Kitty   
Dear Charlotte:
   
          NHS and UK help lines:  Click link below:

  https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/feelings-symptoms-behaviours/behaviours/help-for-suicidal-thoughts/ 🔗

Please make calls ASAP .... we love you Charlotte ❤️  ❤️  ❤️

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
  Forum Administrator
                      cc:  @Susan

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

It was about 4am I woke up and hated myself. I still do but not planning to do anything about it. Push comes to shove I can't end it because of my fiance. In the end I'm trapped...i have to stay around even though in truth deep down i dont want to. I guess thats my punishment for something.  Having to endure a life on this earth.

Thanks for thw kindness. Takes the edge off of living at least. I see the few positive things like palliative care...taking the pain off living umtil i finally reach where i want to be.

Charlotte ❤️