Charlotte's scratch post

[Dawn Kellie]

Mornings are horrible. If they  old pit them at the end of the day it would be better 😀

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Just checked my breast measurements too and can confirm no growth for 6 months now. Still at 38 under bust and 40 bust. Exactly as my last two measurements. Not sure if growth will just resume or not. If it doesn't I'll probably go up to 8mg E and see if anything changes. Push nearer 600pmol/l E levels.

Charlotte 😻

[Gina P]

I find dropping the E one week then upping it the next and tappering for a 30 day cycle helps. Progesterone helps too, but only after the first year

[Lori Dee ✅]

Be careful with oral doses over 4mg. It is processed by the liver and affects coagulation. That's why they warn about the dangers of stroke and heart attack.

The key to remember is that a higher dose does not equal more growth. Once the receptors are saturated, there is no benefit to adding more - it is just wasted and carries the risk of side effects.

Gina's cycling protocol is interesting because the real magic happens while hormones are fluctuating. Biologically, the ovaries increase E for about ten days, then return to baseline. As E drops, P levels rise, then return to baseline. It is this rise and fall that stimulates all the effects that we want.

The biggest problem is that oral meds require higher doses to get past the liver and actually raise blood levels. But that also is where the risks come in. Sublingual, patch, and injection routes bypass the liver and require lower doses to be effective.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Be careful with oral doses over 4mg. It is processed by the liver and affects coagulation. That's why they warn about the dangers of stroke and heart attack.

The key to remember is that a higher dose does not equal more growth. Once the receptors are saturated, there is no benefit to adding more - it is just wasted and carries the risk of side effects.

Gina's cycling protocol is interesting because the real magic happens while hormones are fluctuating. Biologically, the ovaries increase E for about ten days, then return to baseline. As E drops, P levels rise, then return to baseline. It is this rise and fall that stimulates all the effects that we want.

The biggest problem is that oral meds require higher doses to get past the liver and actually raise blood levels. But that also is where the risks come in. Sublingual, patch, and injection routes bypass the liver and require lower doses to be effective.

I do take my pills sublingual so probably helps somewhat. I do have some spray but the supply is up and down as its not official. I'd prefer to do that permanently as patches to get my levels are expensive. WPATH does say up to 700 pmol/l is in range and I'm under half that. I may try to cycle it as I could baseline with pills then use spray to peak it.

Not sure why I need to do this though as others have success on normal prescribed doses which are normally just constant. I knew when I started I'd end up small because that just how my luck has fallen my whole life!

Charlotte 😻

[Lori Dee ✅]

Yes, it depends a lot on genetics. Some will have great success on a constant low dose, others not so much.

I've been doing the constant dose for six years, and I'm not happy yet. I have recently started cycling between E and P to see if anything changes. If not, I'll give up and go surgical.

I had such high hopes because people told me I could expect to be a cup size smaller than my closest female relatives. I thought, "Jackpot!" Both of my grandmothers, all of my aunts, and all of my cousins were huge but also overweight. Sadly, I inherited my great-grandfather's tall-and-skinny genes, and I passed that on to my daughter. < sigh >

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Back to work for the week and exhausting as ever. I'll be glad when it's Saturday again that's for sure.

Back to running club tonight and pleased to find my energy is finally recovering after surgery and I can run again without feeling really sick. Hopefully I can build my strength back up and get on track again.

Not really anything else to report. All my week exists of really is work and recovering from work unfortunately.   

Charlotte 😻

[Stottie Girl]

Yes, it depends a lot on genetics. Some will have great success on a constant low dose, others not so much.

I've been doing the constant dose for six years, and I'm not happy yet. I have recently started cycling between E and P to see if anything changes. If not, I'll give up and go surgical.

I had such high hopes because people told me I could expect to be a cup size smaller than my closest female relatives. I thought, "Jackpot!" Both of my grandmothers, all of my aunts, and all of my cousins were huge but also overweight. Sadly, I inherited my great-grandfather's tall-and-skinny genes, and I passed that on to my daughter. < sigh >

They do say that about being a cup smaller than your close relatives but I've ended up bigger than my mum and both grandmothers. I have no sisters. Even when I was thinner I was larger (if that makes sense!).

Personally I think it is a bit of a crapshoot. Everyone has their theories on what works best but at the end of the day I think your bodies are predetermined to produce what they produce.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

They do say that about being a cup smaller than your close relatives but I've ended up bigger than my mum and both grandmothers. I have no sisters. Even when I was thinner I was larger (if that makes sense!).

Personally I think it is a bit of a crapshoot. Everyone has their theories on what works best but at the end of the day I think your bodies are predetermined to produce what they produce.

I'm pretty sure I'll be leaning on my credit cards in a couple of years to sort it out! At least I can then choose how big I go and have another visit to Turkey.

[Dawn Kellie]

I've said it before. Im just looking for a nice B. Nothing big but noticeable

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I've said it before. Im just looking for a nice B. Nothing big but noticeable

The thing is B isn't noticeable on me at all. I have to wear padded bras and very carefully selected outfits to show them. Without the bra and just sweatshirts I'm basically a man again. I don't think the fact my stomach sticks out more than my boobs helps.

I reject so many nice clothes as they just hide them

Charlotte

[Courtney G]

I had the body type of one of my sisters: very thin - so I figured I'd get her flat chest rather than the fuller bosom of my curvy sister. But I ended up at 34 under and 41 over, a D cup so far. I hesitate to bring this up because I feel like I'm boasting. But I guess the point is that it's a bit of a lottery.

I've also heard of trans women who went up a cup size or more after being on HRT for many years, so there's that.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I had the body type of one of my sisters: very thin - so I figured I'd get her flat chest rather than the fuller bosom of my curvy sister. But I ended up at 34 under and 41 over, a D cup so far. I hesitate to bring this up because I feel like I'm boasting. But I guess the point is that it's a bit of a lottery.

I've also heard of trans women who went up a cup size or more after being on HRT for many years, so there's that.

Honestly when lottery and luck is involved I give up. When it comes to chance I lose every time. Even my parter and the one before says that can't believe how unlucky I am in anything that comes to chance. Only benefit from things I've worked really hard for.

Better get another credit card sorted.
Id do it with my GRS but not sure if I can handle both at once. I might ask how much.

[davina61]

Mum is a C cup, I have a almost C size. Well I have a C size bra, with my body size I could do with a D but you get what you get.

[Stottie Girl]

I tell you what Charlotte, I'm liking your latest Avatar pic. Your new face is healing brilliantly. I only see a woman there for sure.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I tell you what Charlotte, I'm liking your latest Avatar pic. Your new face is healing brilliantly. I only see a woman there for sure.

Thank you Sarah for your kind comments. Very much appreciated. The healing is coming on nicely and the rhinoplasty swelling reduces each day. In a few months the final result will be fully visible.

I like to get pictures in that location. It's a little woodland area in my work grounds. I go there to relax at lunch time and the light is lovely on a sunny day. That's quite a tame outfit for me, but I do like it.

Charlotte 😻

[Stottie Girl]

Thank you Sarah for your kind comments. Very much appreciated. The healing is coming on nicely and the rhinoplasty swelling reduces each day. In a few months the final result will be fully visible.

I like to get pictures in that location. It's a little woodland area in my work grounds. I go there to relax at lunch time and the light is lovely on a sunny day. That's quite a tame outfit for me, but I do like it.

Charlotte 😻

Well, you suit it Charlotte. Nice.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I've finally managed to put up some resistance to going down deep depressive holes. Today a couple of times I almost did, but successfully challenged my thoughts and steered out of it. I'm trying to be more confident on my transition too. It's tough but I'm learning to accept myself more each day.

So today I've felt quite good and even put some music on at work, especially loud when I was on my own for half an hour.

Interestingly working through my book on Borderline Personality Disorder I determined my attachment type. Then it turns out that attachment style is most typical in people with BPD. Well that's not a surprise!

I'm preoccupied type of attachment:
"Intense fears of abandonment, a desperate need for closeness, and extreme emotional reactivity. Individuals often feel unworthy while idealizing others, leading to frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined rejection."

Well this is all a start towards improving my mental health. Everyone here has really helped me to get on a better track. For that I'm entirely thankful.

Charlotte 😻

[Dawn Kellie]

Great to hear you were able to steer away from the downs. It's never easy getting out of your own head.
By the way the profile pic looks great.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I love this article here on passing:

Passing article 🔗 [Link: everydayfeminism.com/2016/01/how-​love-​being-​non-​passing/]

I'm really going to try and live by sections 4 and 6. They so resonate with me and how I want to express myself. I just need to ditch my fears of using bathrooms and such. If I can overcome that then I can deffo push some attitude and go out there unapologetically me and wild. I don't want to be caged.

Charlotte 😻