Day 1.5 morning update: I did have a very surprising thing to report from last night. While laying face down in bed, I felt a kind of faint, but noticeable, warm "buzz," if that makes sense, in my chest. It felt sort of like someone rubbed Vicks/Bengay/tiger balm on either side of my chest. Very faint, and broad, but noticeable when laying face down (but not on my side or back). Obviously HRT is not magic so I don't suddenly have boobs or anything. Nothing whatsoever has changed physically, not in the slightest. But it was a noticeable tingly/buzzy warmth that I was shocked to get so soon (about 5, 6 hours in?). I know it's just increased blood flow and the like, nothing more at this point, and I'm guessing I could only feel it when laying on my chest because of the pressure making that increase more noticeable? And it makes logical sense that the body just responds to the chemical signals as they come, rather than wait around on a delay for basic stuff like circulation. But it was 100% noticeable. And believe me, I know how it sounds, I've lurked around trans spaces for 15, 20 years - I promise, I'm not trying to say I got growth or anything. I do not, full stop. But, I could feel that my body is doing something differently, which I figured wouldn't happen for at least a week or so. Taking the emotions out of this (which I'm going to try and do this whole time to be as fair as possible to myself and this decision), it's just fascinating from a biology/scientific curiosity perspective.
When I woke up, it was gone. I took my 2nd dose this morning and about 4 hours later, it's there again. A bit more faint, but noticeable.
Mentally, I have a kind of weird analogy but you know when you go to the eye doctor and do the "better...worse?" game with two practically identical settings? But after really thinking about it, one is slightly clearer/sharper/crisper than the other? That's kind of how I feel. Crisper? If that makes sense? But only just. I still don't have spiro so the T pretty quickly overwhelms the E, but because of that, I have got to experience that eye doctor "better/worse" test and it IS better. It seems to ramp up to about 4, 5 hours in and then fades back. Slight, but again, noticeable! I know I already said it but again, purely on a biological/scientific curiosity level, this is really crazy to see how much of a difference such a little blue pill can cause!
