Two weeks ago I came out to my therapist. She has a lot of exoerience with gender and sexual diversity.
She said she thought I was cd, pretty hard to miss if you look close enough.
I explained some of my backstory including the fact I may be transgender, which has been something of a shock to me. I thought a lot of guys wonder about being female and know about hormones. Ha.
After coming out to her I have been experiencing eurphoria. It was kind of happening anyway as the depression I was in has been lifting for a month or so.
In the days since I visited a hairdresser who is a strong trans advocate. She waxed my brows. Coloured them and also did my eyelashes.
I was shocked with how they looked but now I love them. The only comment I got was are you wearing mascara from my wife.
My hairdresser gave me some tips about presentation urging me to change to smaller earrings among other things.
She was really pushing me to come out fully but she has adhd issues so I need to be careful about how I proceed.
My hair is now to my shoulders and I can kind of hide behind it.
For the first time in 20 years I can look in the mirror and not hate on myself. I actually catch myself wanting to look at my reflection.
I took a couple of photos which I absolutely hate but it's a work in progress.
My hairdresser talked about facial hair removal and I told her I went to a laser clinic and was told it wouldn't be suitable. She called that bs.
So I went to another clinic and I've already had my first session. Ouch.
My wife is ok with that but I'm not allowed to go outside crossdressed.
So I only wearing womens versions of casual clothes, plus of course underwear.
She did comment on my leggings yesterday though.
End of venting.
