Hello. My name is Amira.
I am 55 years old and have spent my entire life playing the role of a husband and father. Outwardly, my life looks complete, but internally, I have struggled with a deep sense of being 'wrongly equipped' for as long as I can remember.
I am writing this because the weight of my double life is becoming harder to carry. I haven't started any physical transition yet, but the disconnect between my body and my soul is a constant, physical ache. It's particularly difficult to navigate the intimacy of my marriage while hiding the fact that I feel like a woman.
I am at the very beginning of my journey, and I'm looking for a place where I can speak my truth without masks. I need to connect with other women who understand what it's like to realize who you are later in life, and who know the complex balance between self-preservation and the love we have for our families.
I'm not looking to rush into anything, I just need to know that I'm not alone in this 'middle space.' I hope to find some peace and sisterhood here among people who speak the same language of the heart.