Krista’s Celebrations and Doubts

[KristaFairchild]

I've shown her a few posts but she doesn't want to read to much about the subject
 

I can hazard a few guesses as to why. What do you think, if I may ask?

[Valerie.Val]

Hey @KristaFairchild thank you for the inspiring report of that pride day, gives me a lot of hope!

About your HRT, so we actually started around the same time and can compare notes Like you, I can't see how my HRT should unlock even more emotions. Then again I've numbed down a lot and the more positive feelings have returned since I know I'm Val. Here's hoping those intensify!

@Petunia indeed spending time here is good for the soul. Be around people who share the same problems, hopes, and dreams.

[KristaFairchild]

About your HRT, so we actually started around the same time and can compare notes Like you, I can't see how my HRT should unlock even more emotions. Then again I've numbed down a lot and the more positive feelings have returned since I know I'm Val. Here's hoping those intensify!

I love this idea! I had to look to make sure it was my blog we were in so I wouldn't take over someone else's with our conversation!


I think most of the effects of HRT so far I've been psychological. Like I've crossed an important bridge in my journey. Because of that, I was finally able to say openly and often that I am trans. I used to debate this with myself at length.

I found I quit obsessing over what clothes I wear and what clothes I buy - Because in the past, I was always pushing towards being more feminine while also resisting it because of fear. Today I'm in a pretty skirt and a lacy blouse and the world has not blown up.  

I'm just as emotional as I always was, no more and no less. 

Sometimes I think my skin feels a little bit softer. 

The most interesting change may also be psychological, but I'm not sure. For months before starting on hormones, I felt sexually dead. The change hasn't been dramatic but something is waking up and it feels really healthy.  

Sometimes I think something is happening with my breast, but I'm totally convinced that psychological. It's still kind of fun! 

Do any of these experiences resonate with you? Or are you having some different feelings emerge? Or physical changes?

I don't recall how old you are but at age 64, I'm not expecting a lot of physical changes for a while and even then I expect them to be minor. I hear the stories of exceptions, but I'm very much a data person. Science and education have literally been my life's work.

Please share back! 

[Courtney G]

Krista, congratulations in advance on your 1 month HRT anniversary!

I think you'll be quite surprised at the number of changes that occur and the effect they have on you. I started in the second half of my 50s and my skin is super smooth, body hair completely rearranged, muscles dissolved, face changed, regrew a LOT of scalp hair, moods all over the place, ability to cry increased tenfold, body shape changes (clothes fit way differently) and many other small but noticeable things.

I hope you experience some or all of these changes and I hope you find them as delightful as I have. My breast growth alone was worth the price of admission but there were so many other changes, all of which felt affirming to me.

[KristaFairchild]

Courtney, I really hope I get half that! At least I've finally figured out how to get the patches to stick! Lol