How to handle the feelings of shame?

[Stottie Girl]

I am dealing with the same now in therapy. My therapist did get me on an antidepressant and then took a week off so I might have been too much for her!??! I have a plan right now to start Electrolysis in October. I need to work on my Agoraphobia and be ready to start living as Tammy when not working. This will be a rough few months but I am trying to brave it out. I figure it will be increasingly hard to hide all the changes in the spring and by summer it will be impossible. I am planning to move to a new state in 2028 and that will be a fresh start for me. Its a lot but I am excited\scared. I know that the next year may be filled with people being terrible to me but I honestly don't expect much else these days. Wow a long rambling post sorry.

You and me both Tammy. It will be a year of change for the two of us. It's nice to know someone else is on a similar timeline as me. If you are definitely moving in 2028 I would try to get everything done so when you move, you move as Tammy. It would be nice to just move and make a clean break but that's not on the cards for me, I'm not as brave as you.

I think it might be October before I start electrolysis too, we might be getting zapped at the same time! What's your natural hair colour Tammy? Is laser not an option? I'm strawberry blonde with honey blonde highlights and copper undertones! This means my facial hair pops out blonde then once it gets a few mm on it it turns copper red. If I grew a beard it would be a blend of blonde and red so I have diddly squat chance of laser working! Nothing is ever easy with my stupid body ha ha!

What else have you got planned for your year?

[tammy753]

Its brown but now its gray and brown so my facial hair is too light for laser. I need to do voice training, lose weight, find a new job, tell my family and find a new place. so the next 18 months seems like a lot needs done.

[ChrissyRyan]

I went through a number of jobs since starting my journey.  I wish you the best of results.