Anna, finally but not yet final.

[Lori Dee ✅]

As several others here, I was also in the service though not for very long.
Arctic and sub-arctic army infantry reconnaissance, SGT.
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Hey Anna!

Thank you for your service. If you feel so inclined, pop over to our Military Confab forum and say hello in our Roll Call thread:
https://www.susans.org/index.php?topic=247502.0

[KristaFairchild]

I happened to read a post about not being, or not always having been, certain about ones identity, and how there's sometimes doubts and how that can be handled or not.

For me it is a lot about how I perceive myself, mentally.

If I feel like a woman then it is not so important how that feeling came about. If other people see me as a woman or as a femme-ish male is currently a bit less important, and I am definitely not gendered as a woman - but I'm probably not "gendered" as a typical male either, by the people with whom I interact in discussions or socializing. After my acceptance of my transfemme identity, I find that women seem to accept me as kind of an equal-ish partner on those occasions and that is really affirming because I then feel woman-like even though I don't really look the part.
Throwback to my time at the university, where I also was accepted as a kind of equal partner both in the group of girls where my then-to-be wife hung out and in another group of girls that frequented the areas of uni where I mostly was. In hindsight it is quite obvious that I thrived in those settings, enjoyed that company, and my wife also says that I am now (after my transfemme acceptance) much more like I was when we first met. I was probably accepted in those groups because my true identity came shining through even though I did not really know about it at that time.

Does that make me know the gender of my soul intuitively? Perhaps it does? I know that I am a woman on the inside, but one that is more than a little bit tainted by enduring 60 years of male life. I know that I also want to be a woman and that is a total non-issue that follows from finally accepting that I am a woman. I have known or half-known that I want to be a woman all my life, but I did not accept that my identity is female, until a few months ago.

Knowledge, logic, reasoning and proof/evidence is King in the professional domain where I have worked, but for some reason I don't need to apply much of that to myself and to my identity. There are proof points that I can fall back upon but any doubt is very much a pseudo thing and I never truly need to convince myself with logic, about being transfemme.

I know what I am. Perhaps that is what 50 years of suppression while kind of knowing, does? Once that suppression is removed you know things quite clearly? That is the way it feels.

This. All of this. ❤️

[Petunia]

This. All of this. ❤️

I totally agree

[davina61]

Oh yes.

[Finally Anna]

World Cup. Norway vs England.
Though they have played a nice style, I am not cheering for The three Lions.

[Stottie Girl]

World Cup. Norway vs England.
Though they have played a nice style, I am not cheering for The three Lions.

A Nice style? We've been awful apart from the Mexico game and the Croatia Game. I have no choice but to support them ha ha! we are 2-1 up but I can't say we deserve to go through if it ends like this.

[Finally Anna]

I don't like the slow-tempo, passing for 10 mins and nothing happens. At least, the Lions have been a bit more on the offense that most other teams.
I will root for them, from now on.
The 2nd gold has been 60 years in the making, it's about time.

[Stottie Girl]

I don't like the slow-tempo, passing for 10 mins and nothing happens. At least, the Lions have been a bit more on the offense that most other teams.
I will root for them, from now on.
The 2nd gold has been 60 years in the making, it's about time.

It wasn't even the same trophy last time we won it! Another world cup Argie bargy! I think we have a chance against them, neither of us are firing on all cylinders yet.

[Finally Anna]

For some reason I've not been feeling a lot of "I require more femme things", lately.
I do underdressing, femme/andro shorts, femme/andro sneakers, femme/andro jeans, long(er) nails but only clear polish, skin care routines, longer lashes via serum, clear mascara, ...
I have ordered a brown mascara and a taupe brow-pencil. Will try them on when suitable.
My shirt-blouse is still in the wardrobe, awaiting the right time.

Also: It's almost three weeks 'til next haircut and my hair seems to grow quickly so I am beginning to look a bit scruffy. I'm using Minoxidil but that should not impact growth speed.

[davina61]

What ever keeps you happy dear, go at your own pace. Its not a race!!

[Finally Anna]

At least I went from matte nail polish to gloss, today. Still no colour so a real baby step but one that feels perfectly right.