Who am I fooling, but myself, in thinking that I really want to just be androgynous?
I don't WANT to be just androgynous. I want to be a really female woman on the outside as well as on the inside. Then, it can be that I have to settle for an androgynous look where I sometimes lean more femme, sometimes lean homme - but it is not what I'd choose if I could choose freely without problematic consequences.
There, I said it! I realized today that this is how it is.
As I said before, only time can tell, but I'd bet on having to settle for androgynous.