Like, ya know, whatever

[Laura Squirrel]

[Laura Squirrel]

I remember when I decided to write Erica Porcupine's backstory. She's the character in my avatar. It was such a trip because I had only "known" this character as Erica. Once I started her backstory, I was maybe halfway through the first story in the trilogy. Then, I noticed something interesting. I kept calling her Erica when her birth name was Eric.

I spoke with my friend about it, and he started to laugh. He knew exactly what I was thinking. This was like seeing this from the eyes of a parent in a very abstract way.

[Laura Squirrel]

Righteous Pigs were a killer band. But, jeez, some of these lyrics are beyond dumb. I've known it all along, sure. But listening to a few of these songs, it sounds like some sexually frustrated loser. Which is even more so since they did write about personal/social subjects. But those other songs were better, even if the lyrics were nowhere near being complicated. I just find that line of writing in Metal to be utterly ridiculous. But the music does save it. Still..........

[Laura Squirrel]

My skirt is on the way. Cool. It will be weird wearing something that isn't jeans. LOL

[Laura Squirrel]

I had this made into a shirt a long time ago. Some dude from... somewhere made this at... some point. Such an adorable image. But it's Portia. What else am I gonna say?

[Mariah ✅]

It's beautiful. Hugs
Mariah

[Laura Squirrel]

The best part was that this shirt was how everyone was able to pick me out at the Noise shows that I did.

[Laura Squirrel]

Erica Preston is getting to work on her Jen Barber look. I guess that I left the comments open on this one. My friend commented, and he did not disappoint. Love ya, Dotty! LOL

[Laura Squirrel]

Erica Preston in her Jen Barber cosplay, takin' care of business with "Dole" to the left of the troublemaker. We don't need any trouble here at The Palace.

[Laura Squirrel]

Showing the process of creating the Jen look.

The "WWEP" stands for "Walking With Erica Preston". It's a series where I TRY to just walk around the city and listen to the crazy conversations. BUT, there are times where Erica wants to show out.  The shopping starts at 3:33.

[Laura Squirrel]

This channel rules. It can be pretty interesting and also hilarious.

[Laura Squirrel]

You can't count on people to do anything properly. I got my clothes. I took it out of the mailbox. 'Hmmmm, seems a bit small'. I get to my apartment, open it, and what do I see?

A SIZE SMALL MICKEY MOUSE SHIRT!

How stupid do you have to be to make such a dumb mistake??

This is the third time I've had a problem with this site. I've ordered from them since '06. People are pathetic.

[Lori Dee ✅]

A SIZE SMALL MICKEY MOUSE SHIRT!

I found a really nice Fall/Winter sweater online. It was so cute, I ordered three in different colors, in size XXL. I don't like my sweaters tight.

When they arrived, the packages were clearly marked Made in China. I opened the first one and began to wonder if I ordered the right size. They were all clearly marked size XXL. So I began to wonder what size an average Chinese woman is if this is XXL.

A new family had recently moved into the apartment building, and one of their daughters was about 12 years old. I asked her mother if it was ok to give them to her, and she agreed and thanked me.

A few weeks later, I saw mom taking the kids to school, and the 12-year-old was wearing one of the sweaters. And it still looked so cute! After that, I check the sizing measurements very carefully, several times before ordering.

I still want those sweaters in my size, but they don't come that big. < sigh >

[Laura Squirrel]

Oh, I checked all of the sizing stuff. They are just incompetent.

[Laura Squirrel]

Even though I still would've dealt with a myriad of medical issues, things would've been so much easier if I wasn't trans.

I'm just so, so burnt out. Between all of the stuff that we know is going on, this economy being such trash, and being stuck in a lousy place that I can't escape from....

It's really getting to me in a really bad way. I don't want to just be complaining and moaning about stuff. But I just can't live in blissful ignorance. I just can't. My brain doesn't work like that.

I know it sounds so incredibly stupid. But this frickin' clothing thing is a bit like the pin that burst the balloon. It would be nice to just go out and go shop. But I can't. I'm broke anyway, and any extra money will have to go towards stupid grooming stuff.

I'm just sick of this. I want out. But I'm trapped here. I don't really have a choice.

I'm sick of having lived a life where so much of it was decided for me, and I had no say in it at all.

"Just accept it." That attitude goes both ways, ya know?

[Lori Dee ✅]

As they say: "This too shall pass."

The pendulum swings both ways. It has been pushing hard to the right, but it can only go so far before it swings back to the left.

I get those thoughts too. So I prepare. Either things will start moving quickly in our favor, or the whole system will break. I am betting it will go our way if we just hang in there long enough. And if it breaks, then everyone will be screwed, so I prepare for that too.

Ignore the here and now, for now. Look for signs ahead that indicate things are changing for the better. They are there; you just have to look for them.

If you focus on the negative, that is what you will see, and it is depressing.
If you focus on the positive, you will see more and more of it because you are looking for it. That becomes hopeful.

Hang tough, Sister.

[Stottie Girl]

Even though I still would've dealt with a myriad of medical issues, things would've been so much easier if I wasn't trans.

I'm just so, so burnt out. Between all of the stuff that we know is going on, this economy being such trash, and being stuck in a lousy place that I can't escape from....

It's really getting to me in a really bad way. I don't want to just be complaining and moaning about stuff. But I just can't live in blissful ignorance. I just can't. My brain doesn't work like that.

I know it sounds so incredibly stupid. But this frickin' clothing thing is a bit like the pin that burst the balloon. It would be nice to just go out and go shop. But I can't. I'm broke anyway, and any extra money will have to go towards stupid grooming stuff.

I'm just sick of this. I want out. But I'm trapped here. I don't really have a choice.

I'm sick of having lived a life where so much of it was decided for me, and I had no say in it at all.

"Just accept it." That attitude goes both ways, ya know?

Sorry you are feeling down Laura, I'm feeling thoroughly miserable myself and had a good old moan on my blog too ha ha! It helps to put it in writing. I feel sorry for the poor people who have to read it though lol! The weight of everything can be tough to bear at times, it can make a simple warehouse error feel far bigger than it is in reality. Sometimes the slightest thing can be all it takes to tip us over the edge but it's really not the end of the world, the earths still spinning, as Lori says the pendulum will swing back to the left eventually, we just have to keep our heads above the water until it does. When I was growing up trangender folk had a really tough time of it as some on here will atest to. Compared to what they had to go through it is not as bad as the media like to portray.

Chin up hinny, pop the mickey mouse top back in the post and they'll get your skirt sent out to you before you will know it. 😁

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Sending you lots of love and hugs Laura. I don't know the answers, but hoping you find something better soon.

Charlotte ❤️

[Laura Squirrel]

Sorry you are feeling down Laura, I'm feeling thoroughly miserable myself and had a good old moan on my blog too ha ha! It helps to put it in writing. I feel sorry for the poor people who have to read it though lol! The weight of everything can be tough to bear at times, it can make a simple warehouse error feel far bigger than it is in reality. Sometimes the slightest thing can be all it takes to tip us over the edge but it's really not the end of the world, the earths still spinning, as Lori says the pendulum will swing back to the left eventually, we just have to keep our heads above the water until it does. When I was growing up trangender folk had a really tough time of it as some on here will atest to. Compared to what they had to go through it is not as bad as the media like to portray.

Chin up hinny, pop the mickey mouse top back in the post and they'll get your skirt sent out to you before you will know it. 😁

Yeah, I just have to wait on these goons to get back with me. Sure, it's a small thing. But, there are times where the smallest thing can be the catalyst for just losing it. I said 'hell with it' and took a nap. I still hate this whole situation. Being in this body. Being in this town. It sucks.

[Stottie Girl]

Yeah, I just have to wait on these goons to get back with me. Sure, it's a small thing. But, there are times where the smallest thing can be the catalyst for just losing it. I said 'hell with it' and took a nap. I still hate this whole situation. Being in this body. Being in this town. It sucks.

Sounds like a good solution to me. A good power nap solves many problems. Maybe not all of them but things will look rosier in the morning I'm sure.