Chapter 2 - Charlotte's scratch post

[Stottie Girl]

Thanks 😊 all for your kind support!

I don't want to give up Lori. Much like self harm these are last resorts my mind flies to in order to try and shutdown enotions when i can't handle or process them. The intensity of emotions is unbearable at times.

I'll try to shut down expectations as much as I can now. I've exhausted everything that I can do or make happen now. I've put changes in place and arranged surgery. So thats what I've decided and that I will go with.

It's not going to be easy. But I  will do my best.

Other news I've made a new trans friend who invited me into her kink group with some other trans women. And she's polyamerous so going to tell me all about that and help me figure out if its a workable dynamic. A lot going on!

You really are adventurous aren't you little lady!! I would be sooo intimidated but you just throw caution to the wind! It is one of your great strengths Charlotte. I hope it all works out for you. I think it's about time Charlotte had a bit more fun in her life!

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

You really are adventurous aren't you little lady!! I would be sooo intimidated but you just throw caution to the wind! It is one of your great strengths Charlotte. I hope it all works out for you. I think it's about time Charlotte had a bit more fun in her life!

Aww not that adventurous.  Just makes me feel desirable if people are prepared to do things with me. Its nothing more than what I got upto when i was like 16 - 24 years old. Be interesting to explore though x

[Finally Anna]

Because giving it up removes all remaining expectations and gives me back control.

I'm afraid that it does not (give you back control).
Giving it up just puts you in a different square of the board, with the uncertainties and frustration that comes with that square.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Had a furry meet on Saturday which was fun. I wore my full suit which was great but I did get very hot and exhausted!

Still keeping in touch with my friend that I met a couple of weeks back for the first time. Nice to just have a chat. In a few weeks we are going to a craft fair ,then back to her place for dinner. Will see if she can teach me some things with my hair!

Next Saturday night I'm sleping over with my trans friend for some fun. We really get on too. Somehow ended up chatting on a video call for 3 hours lol. Nervous as not done anything like this in soo long. But I need to work out that side of my new self. I can't just ignore it if I want to be happy and fulfilled. She keeps saying how she aspires to look like me too lol!

Today went swimming early after missing last Sunday, as was at an adult meet. Plus had just had my new tattoo. Felt really affirmed in my swimsuit this morning too.

[Stottie Girl]

How are you managing in the female changing rooms? Are they still allowing trans women in there?

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

How are you managing in the female changing rooms? Are they still allowing trans women in there?

My local pool has family changing rooms so we get changed together.  Went into the women's loo today though!

[Stottie Girl]

Oh right so unisex, all in cubicles then?

It has been sooo long since I went swimming. I don't think I have been since my early twenties! I think I would like that once the offending appendage is removed.