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I was told to expect moods swings but nothing like what happened today. I woke up from a small nap and felt a bit sick, I thought I was going to be physicall ill. I am not sure if it was just the emotion coming but something happen and I though I would become sick and take a while to recover (maybe a day or tow of stomach problems). It seams it was the emotion coming on, I burst into tears and a massive cry, another break down. I call my friend and cousellor cause I was feeling awful and having thought about self harm (i hate the word suicide and having trouble typing it) a was afraid of my own well being. I guess the fear lasted for only a few minutes but that was a few minutes to long, I sure as hell do not want to feel like that again. My cousellor did call me back and I was able to talk to her. We chatted about what just happened as I was calming down. She made sure I had some emergency numbers with me to call in case I feel the same again. I have booked marked it in the phone book and have writtern that number down in two spots in addition to having it in my wallet that was written in there after talking to the doctor on Tuesday.
It is 10:30 tonight and I am feeling calm again but I fear another episode like what happened 2 hours ago. I calculated tonight (with the help of another friend) that I have now been on HRT for 5 months.
What has everyone's experience been on Moods swings. It is related to HRT, how long do these massive mood swings last.
Alice