Black emptiness
http://tgnotwhatyouthink.blogspot.com/2008/09/black-emptiness.html9/10/2008
Recently, I've been in a slight funk. I've begun and deleted several blog entries. My mood swings usually are not severe, similar to the Before Time, but I do have them. I usually feel good, so I tend not to notice if I'm feeling extra good. But I do notice when I'm feeling bad or troubled, because it happens less often.
I am well aware that transition is a compromise. It's not what I really want, which is to have been born a cissexual girl and to have had a life as a female person. Since that can't happen, however, transition is the next best thing. Most of the time, it's such a wonder, such an amazing privilege, that I am simply grateful for all the things I can have and I pay no attention to the things I can't have.
