<giggle> "practicing" christian, sweetie, still working out the kinks.
Posted on: October 05, 2008, 08:51:21 am
and so today was world communion day. of course pastor ben tried to make his sermon fit the mood. communion...a mystery, a wonderous, soft, tender connection with our loving God. coming to the Lord's table to be in communion with Him. i always thought it was for me. i always get a feeling that the communion is real, i really am just a bit closer to Him during that time. i think my prayers mean more and are more like the prayers God really wants to hear from us.
pastor ben asked us today to think of a person that really tries us. someone who just gets under our skin and we find very difficult to love. think of that person as you come to the table, know that you are sharing God's love and His grace with them. know that God loves that person with all His heart...laughs when they laugh, cries when they cry..suffers when they suffer.
i thought of someone. someone i think is just completely self-absorbed, arrogant and entitled, and the one thing that really scrapes that chalk across the blackboard for me...she has a filthy mouth. every sentence from her mouth is loaded with vulgarity and profanity. i thought of her. i imagined her right beside me as i approached the table. "the bread of life, pj" says the pastor...and i heard another name with mine. when i returned to my seat i was very humbled, human and very, very short of the glory of God. i had actually had the audacity to ask God to be kind to this woman in prayer before communion. i had assumed that God loved me and i might have some pull with Him so if i asked nicely...for me...maybe he'd work on her. how humiliating when i sat there and realized that she was there, she was at the Lord's table by His invitation and He was tick'led pink to see her. seems God knew her and loved Her every bit as well as He knows me and loves me.
"communion" says pastor ben, "isn't it about humility?"