I did all the typical things that guys do to try and 'hold the ball under the water'. I have been married three times now, fathered four children, been in the military twice, drove Eighteen Wheeler long haul, been an auto mechanic. I have tried suicide twice. If I had had a gun, it would be over. And that is why I am against carrying one.
Then I did something that I had tried before,
I gave up trying to a man. And low and behold, I am now happier person, because I am finally the person that I should have been. Would I go back and change any of it? No, because I would not be the person I am now.
Yes, I get very emotional at times. But I even enjoy that part. After all I am a woman.
