I have decided to make the transition from MTF

[betty]

Hi there eveyone

I guess I should give you a little of my history, Im a 31 year old male who has lived all of their life feeling that are female, especally mentally. I also have a very feminine body,including a cute butt, however I have also disliked my body due to body hair.

I have always been thought of as a female growing up by perfect strangers e.g. what a cute girl shopping for mum, to getting cat calls as a teenager, from stright and gay males. I have never been able to fit in with any male groups, even whilst a child i gravitated towards the female groups.
However I grew up in a household where there was no talk of sexuality and still to this day my father cant hug me as it isnt manly. My parents were the best parents in every other way just not with emotions.
As a teenage I went sport crazy and didnt form any romantic or sexual relationships with either sex, both assuming I was gay.

I stayed single until I met my female partner at the age of 26, we are still together, i started by wearing panties once in a while to having worn womens underwear under my work clothes everday for the last 4 years

This xmas my mother informed me that she took a drug during her pregancy that was to help her with serve endometriosis. Her doctor asked her in her 26 week if she wanted to abort her child as there was a possiblity the child would be a hemaphordite.  Thanks mom for keeping me.

Has anyone else have this background with medication during pregrancy.

It has got to the point that it is extremely difficult to live in a body that doesnt feel like mine, I want to explore my female side.

Im hoping that some very kind people in the forum could provide me with some insite and advice on starting the process e.g. hormones etc.

Thanks everyone even for just hearing me out.

Betty

[K8]

Welcome, Betty.

My family, too, was loving and did the best they could.  But my father never hugged me and my mother wasn't all that comfortable with it either.  I don't think I ever saw them kiss or give each other a real hug.  Some families are like that.  And times are changing.

Probably the first step, Betty, should be counseling.  I think it helps enormously to talk to someone who is trained to help you sort out your feelings.  Once you start understanding who and what you are and where you might want to go, then you can start thinking about hormones and other physical changes.

I'm still early in this process (mostly out to those I know, only 2 weeks on hormones, still getting laser treatments), but I have already discovered that there's a lot more involved than just the hormones and hair removal.  In the beginning I thought mostly about the physical changes, but the mental and emotional and social changes have been more profound and are far more important to me.  Be patient and get help sorting things out.

Good luck on your journey.

- Kate

[Miniar]

Gratz on making the decision.
Hope it goes well.

[Mr. Fox]

Welcome, Betty!

Although I don't think there's any studies, there do seem to a fairly large number of transsexuals whose mothers used certain kinds of drugs.  Nothing conclusive, and now that people know the dangers and are way more careful about drugs and pregnancy, things like that don't happen very often.  I'm utterly horrified that you mother's doctor suggested that she abort you just because you might have been intersexed (PC term for hermaphoditic).  The forms that cause health problems can easily be taken care of, and other forms aren't going to do anything but make someone look "weird."  Kudos to your mother for ignoring that quack.

Congratulations on deciding to learn about yourself, and good luck!

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Betty,

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[paulault55]

Hi Betty and welcome to Susan's, I was born in 1952, yes I'm 57, in those days they gave pregnant woman DES to help prevent miscarriages and it is possible to have a ts child, there is no way i can find out if my mother took this drug as she is deceased and there are circumstances preventing me from getting the hospital records.

HUGS!

Paula