My name is Jonny. I'm extremely shy in the LGBT community. I'm ftm. I've tried coming out a few times but people really didn't like it. I got scared and quickly scuffled back into my closet of rejection and solitude. I see myself as a man trapped in a woman's body. I had a very hard time growing up because of it. I've gotten a little more used to it. While I see that everything does have its ups and downs I still view myself as a man inside a woman. I've tried to be a normal girl a few times and it really doesn't work much for me. I do act effeminate sometimes but even that doesn't make me feel girly. Honestly everytime I wear a skirt I feel very much like a cute lil drag queen. (cute and lil because I'm very petite) I do like putting on makeup and showy/fancy skirts because it makes me feel closer to the gay (male) community. Dont get the wrong idea though, its fun for vanity but I tend to be a "man" of practicality. I don't wear such things too often. I prefer pants. I just try to work with what I got. Heh look at me babbling on about my clothes, I'm giving you the wrong impression arent I? Somebody might try to talk to me about brands or fashion and I'll be all like "What?" I like video games alot rpgs and puzzles are my favorites. I love going out. I am a young adult. I have two cats. I live in Texas. I love cupcakes! and I'm new to the forum so hello.