Okay, so I posted a topic a while back about coming out to my sister, and well basically my family, but I can't seem to do it. I'm scared of their reactions. I don't talk to my sister anymore, so I don't care about telling her to be honest.
But heres the thing, I really want to tell my mom. Like I said before I think she suspects something, but won't say anything. The other day I went to get a haircut (i cut my hair, because I was pissed that no one would take me, and I cut it really short and messed up lol), so then I came back and my mom saw it (she was shopping at the mall). She gave me a really dirty look and asked me why I can't be feminine, and then started showing me shirts and jeans and saying, its really pretty, why don't you try it on. I, of course refused and she got mad, so I got mad, and we didn't talk.
Then a couple weeks passed, and she took me shopping, because I asked her to take me cause i need clothes. We went into Anchor Blue (not sure if you guys know it?), and she let me choose two shirts from the guys side. She didn't even ask me if I wanted shirts from the girls section, she just pointed at some shirts they had on sale in the guys section, and said pick two. She put up no argument, or anything. So I was surprised. Then we went into the jean section. I REALLY REALLY hate wearing womens jeans, you don't know how bad I hate it. I grabbed some that are two sizes larger, and just said, I'm done. Obviously the jeans still suck, and I hate them so bad, but back to the point.
So then a couple more days passed and she asked me, "Why do you do your hair like that? Do you like it?" I don't really like being questioned what I like, so I just quickly said, "Yes mom, I do my hair like this all the time." and she didn't say anything else. So now, my mom hasn't said anything, and I'm not really sure if she knows I'm trans, but I also don't want her to think of me as a lesbian, because...thats just not who I am.
Like she isn't fighting me, but I know that if I said something like, "Mom I want to get jeans from the guys section." she would say no and start a big fight with me. Do you think I should just come out to my mom? I think shes trying to figure me out, and shes doing it really really slowly. So what do you guys think? I mean I'm not sure if she would totally accept it, but then again I think she will. I'm kind of stuck.