Hi everyone,
This is one of the most meaningful things i have ever expressed in writing since i began coming back to life as myself last year.
I cried like hell as i wrote it for the first time, and it was a great pleasure to share it with everyone here on this board.
I was able to save the file, so i'll re-post it now. I hope you like it.
Thanks all, always.
Sincerely,
Annagirl
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"The Floodgates Have Opened"
As i sit here in my glory,
pretty nails, hair, makeup, and most comfortable clothing -
Trying to tell the story -
no worlds(of experience) (or words) can suffice,
as daily im beginning to just roll the dice,
and coming up roses,
while so many people
are still turning up their noses,
They all want me(like any "normal" guy) to be dutiful
instead of me expressing me self as so beautiful -
So Many, so close, treat me like a monster now,
a total freak, and so shameful,
yet calmly somehow,
I feel stronger,
the strength and the beauty -
and the expression of real truth,
is becoming my duty,
I can love, i can sing, i can dance, i can move -
in glory and beauty,
and i'm no longer willing to (have to) prove -
what anyone else is willing to believe,
and because i simply can no longer decieve,
and cause' they all dont have the slightest clue
of what it is, that ive truly,
been asked to retrieve -
the beautiful girl i once was i still am,
and frankly anymore i just dont give a dam -
cause dams can only hold back the river so long -
and to ask me to do so, i know, for me,
is so totally wrong -
It is God and is nature made the rains that will fall -
and the rivers' a swelling - i must answer the call -
and a dam made by man can only hold back so much -
and all the rest, with their amazing little plans,
are just so completely, so madly, and so sadly,
out of touch...
They think that by putting their fingers in me(as if i didnt actually notice), like the dike -
they'll forestay the explosion, and fix me, and the like -
but there's no holding back now, whether they like it or not -
and all of their hatred and ignorance can just go and rot -
They'll all sit by the riverbank, watching it flow, all nice and so normal -
a wonderfully pleasing little show -
they'd like to use all that energy to toil and till in their fields,
and the rain thats a coming, so they'll make all they're yields,
But its a flood thats a coming and they simply cant see,
and that flood is for real - as real - and it's ME -
I'll come a sweeping their plots, their plantings, and their plans -
far aside,
because for the truth,
i am becoming myself,
as the beautiful bride,
for the grace and the glory,
I must tell the story,
and power of things as beautiful,
and as natural as rivers,
could never be such as "dutiful" -
and to bend to their will, and for fear and for shame -
no -
because By the glory of God -
(not some sick little game)
and all things as natural, and beautiful as untamed and flowing waters,
and in the glory of spirit,
yes, and - so therefore -
I WILL TAKE MY NAME
As the Beautiful bride, I must answer the call,
and all the rest i love, no matter,
must still choke on their gall....
The truth i will bring, and i'll laugh, and i'll sing -
and no one could ever believe such a thing -
and they dont realize,
- i'll (i already have) be a takin' that ring,
And the beautiful girl i once was, still am, and always will be,
can run wild, free, and rampant, like the river or the sea,
- a beautiful, free, wild,
and untamable thing....
The Floodgates have opened, and there's no turning back,
no little switch that'll just fade me to black,
The Rain and the river are beautiful things,
just as brides that are made will/must accept all of their rings,
Like kings and like queens, we're still but pawns in the games,
until for one day,
we must reclaim all of our names...
The floogates have opened and theres no going back,
cause i'll have flooded the (their) switches,
that'll fade me to black....
Thanks to all, always,
for your love, and support,
and many blessings always,
sincerely,
ChefAnnagirl
