Every HUMAN winds up at susans with their own demons or just simply questions.
I see too many people running full force into an emotional train wreck in the transgender world. Or is it "transgender people worried? wait, it's transexuals persons? CHRIST, I'M CONFUSED! Sorry, trying to satisfy grammar etiquette here.
Anyways, have you really dug those heels in to find the source of those feelings? It's dark I know and I also know you probably have.
I found out a lot about myself which led me to my conclusions and all. But sometimes it is what it is. It may sound redundant to fight another battle, BUT. The battle never ends! That's the catch. NO you don't have to be miserable during battle! Battle of transgender dysphoria consists of simply being self aware. It's like silently living your life and being the observer and watching with honesty in your motives and actions.
I think going into being a "sex" or gender other than the one you was born with is one not to be taken so lightly. We got people that say they are a "10" when it comes to being opposite of the gender they were born with. I used to think that way! The problem is, if you dive in too hard and fast using brute force to become who you perceive yourself to be could be a mistake.
Loose ends have to be closed! Any guilt issues and so forth have to be closed. By the way, brute force is the act of living in a fantasy world in which you lie to yourself to make a reality that suits your needs. Brute force is the act of ignoring things that are buried deep. The proper path in my opinion is to resolve those subconscious issues and if the gender you perceive is still left move forward from there. But my guess is most failed on this part. In doing so you may be building a life that can be collapsed at any moment when your psychological well being becomes challenged and collapsed. I've been there...
You can't be sorry for who you are and clean up any guilt issues before proceeding if you want to transition properly. Further more you have to be absolutely honest with yourself in EVERYTHING you do from every thought to every motive and find the source of your motives and thoughts. And again, if that girl or guy exist in the end like a strong structure still standing after the perfect storm, then proceed!
