First off all, I am in a situation where my mind isn't going to ever change about having my breasts removed. I am totally sick of wrapping myself and I've quit living a "life" a long time ago because of it. Therefore, I feel like I really need to change my body to fit my mind's needs... I am finally getting a chance to have a top surgery and now my mind is filled with countless negative thoughts which I believe to be all true from the pain of the surgery... Here is the thing: If I don't get rid of these pieces of **** from my poor suffering chest, then I will forever bind. On the other hand, I will suffer from the unimaginable pain that will not only affect my chest, but other things as well.
So here is what I've just thought about:
Would it be possible for another spirit to possess the body that I will never ever accept so at least that it seems like "I" am living? Because there is no way I am living a ****ing fake life of a female. But then, will I even have any conscious memory of my real self since my brain (aka. my mind) is still there inside that outer self of a body? Or will it consume it completely? In any case, how would this be done meaning where would I even look for to find a lost spirit?