i too can't actually transition (well at least until i can) and have tried lots and lots of coping techniques even before i even know what GID or TS means, including drugs ,alcohol ,sexual acts , meditation , separating myself from society and de-socializing , overly socializing , keeping busy ,and mostly recklessness and deliberately involving myself in dangerous situations...etc
so i've been there , done that. but each and everyone of them works to some point then it stops working , or causes other problems (like drugs and alcohol) and yes , i did try to 'end it all' which i found out that it's never really a solution and that i would either end up worse or missing out on an actual chance to transition and/or have great things happening
eventually i've come to this way , which i'm not sure if i can explain it correctly, but , i 'numbed' my feelings (if that makes any sense) , i tried for a while to enforce acceptance , and actually embracing my current state , eliminating any dreams and hopes i might have had then giving myself hope in the possibility of achieving them, dealing with physical dysphoric feelings anyway i can , seeing myself as the real me and acting like it or not 'acting' at all and trying to be around people who are like me , and trying not to think about it much( or at all) mostly by keeping myself occupied , and eventually dealing with life REALLY one second at a time
so idk , it's hard to stay at this state , like walking on a rope with a balance stick , and sometimes a slip ,but i do my best to get back there
and i know most of what i said now probably doesn't make sense ,but i tried to explain how i cope and hope it helps somehow . and i really believe every one has a different way that would work for them , i really hope you find yours until you are able to completely transition , it's just that , generally ,the first step in the way of resolving (temporarily at least) every conflict even inside a person is acceptance
i know i don't make any sense probably but i really hope you get your resolution and eventually be who and how you wish to be