So I haven't really been active on here in a while, but I'm hoping to get more involved with the community now that better things are starting to happen in my life. <:
Earlier today I went out for about half an hour to an hour with my dad, just to some little corner shop, but on the way we went downhill and into the main area of our town, because he wanted to pick something up. I walked into the building with him and I kind of delayed behind him since he was just going to the counter, and then this guy behind the counter was looking at me a bit, and then he said "how old is the lad?" to my dad, who sharply corrected him by saying "oh, it's a lass" and I was told to gtfo and wait outside. When he came out he was kind of scoffing at the guy behind the counter to me because he called me a lad, and I was kind of just grinning because I was actually passing. I've come to the realization that no matter how much I want him to, my dad will not call me he and he will continue to correct people when they call me he (at least for now), so I'm not really surprised or that upset over it like I was last time. I've also started wearing men's jeans and shirts, which is pretty awesome because they are baggy and I love them. I figure if I keep wearing men's clothing around the rest of my family (those who don't know) they won't be as shocked when I come out to them, or they might even guess it beforehand.
About ftm vlogs and such; I've basically been floating around on youtube just looking at a few different ones over the past few days, and I was wondering, to those of you who have them, do you think they're really necessary? I've been thinking about creating one, since I tend to reflect over the little things that have happened to me a lot, and I think doing a vlog about them would be more productive at least. If I did.. it would probably be sometime next year, since I plan to move out into my own place then, and have a steady job.
One of my sister's gave me a shoulder strap bag thinger today too, it was white and had these like purple/blue plastic things dangling off the lid-part-thing? But I cut them off, but I'm still worried that it looks to feminine for me to feel comfortable using. What do you guys think? If it is too femme, which it probably is, then I'll just use a another bag until I get a new one.
Side notes:
I had a conversation with my dad about counseling/therapy a few days ago too, and he refereed to it as "sorting my head out" and the last thing he said gave me the impression that he wouldn't support my transition for as long as he was alive, he also added that "it won't be long".
Anndd, I've thought of a name for myself: Thomas. Though I'm still not completely sure, and I'm having second thoughts about keeping my birth name as a middle name since family might call me it instead of Thomas so they don't have to refer to me as male? Idk.
