I had a most wonderful thing happen to me this morning. My power was turned off! What? you say. How could this be wonderful? Well you see I had just put the finishing touches on my morning shaving routine when suddenly the lights went out. Then I realised what was happening. Although I had planned on stopping off at the power company on the way to work, I had waited too long and the man was there to turn me off.(Typical male)
At this point I had no makeup on, no bra no wig no nothing except my robe and a pair of panties. I went running to the back door and stuck my head out to see the power guy about to tag the meter when I spoke up. "Excuse me" I said. If you had knocked on the door I would have written you a check.
Now comes the good part. He replied,
I knocked at the door three times mam.
Wow!
I had gone to the door without even thinking about how I looked. I spoke without even thinking about how I sounded and bang there it was, Mam! there was no mistaking it. He came towards the door and I was holding my dog back so I told him I was going to slip inside and write the check and could he stay right there.
He was no no more than 5 feet in front of me. That will be fine mam, I just need a check for $xxx.xx.
There it was again! Now at first I thought nothing of it as I have become accustomed to being referred to as mam out in public but as I went to get the check it hit me. I wasn't dressed. I had barely even started to get ready for the day. I was in my most exposed state as far as what gender I am perceived as, and here was this total stranger calling me mam.
I went inside and wrote the check, had to find my glasses first as I hadn't put in my contacts yet and returned. I apologised for the time it took explaining about the glasses and as I handed it to him(he was now close enough to see my beard had I not already shaved) he said that's quite all right mam, have a nice day. and did a respectful nod of the head.
I still can't believe it. Mind you I have a receding hairline and did not have my wig on. This was absolutely spectacular to me. This was a total stranger and I was doing nothing conciously to be perceived female yet there it was without even thinking about it. I'm exstatic, I'm thrilled beyond belief. I have had 0 FFS and have been on HRT since February, yet I seem to have arrived at the other side. If I died tomorrow I would die happy. From here on out everything else in my transition is just icing on the cake.
I just wanted to share this wonderful day with all my sisters at Susan's
Great Journey,
Cassie
