I have drank heavily since I was a kid. I am 47 now. I have tried to stop before and managed a month or two but not much more then that. 
   Last year was allot of firsts for me.
   I decided to like myself for who I am.
   I decided to be completely honest with myself.
   I decided to be completely honest with my wife.
   I started hrt.
   I stopped drinking.
   Life is great now, I have no urge to drink anymore. Although I am not going to feel over confident and stay on guard this season. 
     I hope you all have a very nice and sober holiday this year, as I know I will.
    Sober hugs, Erocse ЁЯЩВ