Hey
Not sure where to start I've been browsing the site as a guest for a while now thought I may as well sign up get my "story" out. It could be a long first post so if I get too carried away shout at me.
Okay I am a 22 year old woman but my body disagrees with that! I've known this for as long as I can remember who I am however I avoided discussing this aspect as I firmly wanted children which transitioning makes difficult (not impossible but difficult). I've been clinically depressed for 6 years now keeping my transsexual Identity firmly secret even from psychiatrists (foolish I know). About 2 months ago however I came to the conclusion that even if I had a child as a male my state of mind would affect the child and it would be unfair upon them, so I came out to my parents and a few chosen friends. The doctors are taking their sweet time considering how every night I wish for 1 of 2 options Death vs Womanhood (this part annoys me, would be nice to talk about it but I'm a listener not a talker). I live in Northamptonshire England and to be honest i'm terrified of being myself after so long, make sense?? Oh and if it hasn't been apparent I'm very shy, online I can talk freely even to people that know me heck I can even text message people in the same room something I could never say out loud. I'm currently in the name deciding process for myself I obviously have a name for myself but this decision affects more than just me so I'm taking opinions on everything. I never rushed into transitioning but I sure wish it would hurry up
Thanks for listening/reading,
Mehby
