Hi Folks
It has been a while since i have posted and updated things, so...
I have had 'the conversation' with my parents, which was surprisingly straight forwards. They were a little surprised, but totally cool with it, and are mainly just concerned for my happiness and wellbeing. My Mum was great, and we had a really long talk about it all, and even my Dad was quite upbeat and positive about it. Going to see my little brother this evening, but I know he will be fine too, and that will be the whole immediate family done!
My wife and I seem to have come to an agreement that we are both happy with too. We have needed to move house for a while as we have a daughter now and have outgrown our 1 bed place. Given what is going on with my transition, the relationship has changed somewhat(!), but we are going to move house together as a family and take it from there. My wife feels that she wants to support my transition any way she can, and also keep some kind of routine in our day to day lives, especially where our daughter is concerned. We have discussed the likely probability of divorce, but as a positive thing which will allow us both to have some personal freedom and ease the pressure our relationship has been under since my coming out. So it looks like we will move to a 3 bed place, live as a family (albeit an unconventional one) in separate bedrooms, and ultimately as divorcees. It might work, it might not, but we are both committed to giving it the best chance and seeing what happens. We both still love each other a great deal, and she has been really understanding and supportive, but we are also both aware that our needs and ambitions are not entirely conducive to remaining a couple. My sexuality has always been quite fluid, but her's isn't and whilst she has no problem with me transitioning, she isn't gay and can't get her head around being married to another woman. You never know, time may change that, or may affirm it even more, but as long as we are talking about it and going in to this with our hearts and minds open, that is about as much as we can both hope for.
And I have a flurry of appointments over the next week or so too... Back to the laser clinic for my next facial hair removal, consultation at the andrology clinic for sperm freezing and storage, another one for blood tests, back to andrology to make a 'deposit', and most importantly my second appointment with the gender clinic which will hopefully result in my hormone prescription! Hurray!
As they say, you wait for a bus for ages, then 3 come along at once... :-)
Still haven't heard anything back from the NHS though...! Oh well.
Amy.x
