Maybe some clarification is needed by how I experience what I understand as a GID attack.
Post my recent brain-op as well as earlier in my transition, it happens mostly in the morning while still in bed. Though not always depending what triggers it.
I once described it as if I was toothpaste in the wrong tube (completely).
It is not just about my plumbing --- YES, IT NEEDS TO BE FLAT DOWN THERE!!! but it extends to my whole body.
Ok, good legs - BUT not much butt, too little waist, too wide shoulders and rib-cage,
and some sort of 1/2 1/2 femme/male features at best. Check my avatar and you may see it?
I was about 4 month into HRT when it was taken (the only one I have, sorry)
Now FFS and $$$ could help with some of this.
My point: All of this will not visibly change after my GRS and if it gives me GID now --- I suppose it will do so post-op?!
I do have VERY little stuff left down there (after 1 year HRT), just a bit too much skin as one might see it. I can wear bikini bottoms, and a plump vag. would not look much any different, yes?
I'm also not THAT genital disphoric so as not to touch them. They just are the wrong item on me. Once I called it a big clit I can pee through, um. Arrogance saving the day?
Boobs are a smallish A-cup (38) and could be some more, etc. etc. you know what I mean.
Now having GRS will make me feel more femme grounded, I know it would, but as far as the visible presentation is concerned not much if anything would change!
I never had a baby in my tummy, (still get a stab seeing pregnant girls) and never was born a bio-girl. Do I quarrel with my lot? I try not too, as what is, IS.
When GID hits me badly all these realization just wrench my gut and want to squeeze the life out of me wanting to be in a girl's "shell" ever so desperately, like the one I am in my head.
Though somewhere I always know it will pass after a while, and a bucket of tears, moans and screams of agony (thank God no one has to listen to it all, they'd think I'd be busy dieing).
So, now what is the dif. to post-op depression to what I have described?
I'm sure you'll know, I don't.
Axelle