6hours and I'm doing it

[Sam(my)I am]

I'm coming out tonight, I'm tired of this charade I have lived for so long, I know I'll never pass as a girl and frankly at this moment. I. Don't. Care. I 'm having trouble breathing with this weight on my chest. It shouldn't be like this,it shouldn't be something to be afraid of but I can't help but be scared I can't help the tears and the pain. But I refuse it I refuse this role that was handed to me at birth! I am a girl damn it and I will be one if only in my eyes.

This isn't a poor me post, this isn't to have unneeded sympathy or whatever from others, this is just to get my thoughts out somewhere *sigh*

[Venus-Castina]

Good luck dear, let us know how it went.

[Sam(my)I am]

Yeah, I hope it goes well too, but quite frankly I just want it out in the open I really can't stand this. 10 years is far to long of repressing.

[madirocks]

Best of luck indeed.

I felt the same way before coming out, and although it's easier said than done please try to relax. After a day of anxiety and no sleep the person I came out too wasn't even bothered, and even mentioned that it would've been easier to understand had I been more relaxed.

So, do yourself a favour, have some tea, put on your favourite song, and go for a nice walk. Relaxing will help the conversation go smoothly.

[Sam(my)I am]

Thank you for the advice, and yeah I have spent the time since the last post on here just laying down listening to music on repeat and hugging my stuff bear I've had since I was 5. I think I know what I'll say I just hope it comes out right....

[madirocks]

You're welcome! I'm glad you're taking the time to relax. That's very important. And try not to stress out whether it will come out correctly or not. Just keep a clear mind, and be prepared to ask informational questions. And maybe throw in a giggle every now and then. People tend to be on edge, when the person they're talking to is as well.

[Sam(my)I am]

Well I did it....I told my mom, she was very confused at what I told her, but she said that she will accept me no matter what.
She also said that she can't begin to imagine how I feel and that she's sorry for not being able to....
I also told her I was bisexual, another bomb shell. But again she said she loves me,
I guess this is the best possible outcome but I still feel utterly shaken about telling her, the only thing she asks of me is that I go see a therapist and see if I truly want this or that I am just confused.

*Btw sorry if this is poorly written I am still shook up at what I just did*

going to bed need to sleep after this, so exhausted....

[Hikari]

Seems like that was a good start, best of luck with telling the others. And congratulations, it is a big step to part with such a big secret.

[caitlin_adams]

Your Mum is awesome.

My Mum basically said the same thing but I was too embarrassed to go and see a therapist. Biggest mistake of my life.

She's offering you help, a path to safety. Take it!

BTW congratulations that takes a lot of courage.

[Sam(my)I am]

Your Mum is awesome.

My Mum basically said the same thing but I was too embarrassed to go and see a therapist. Biggest mistake of my life.

She's offering you help, a path to safety. Take it!

BTW congratulations that takes a lot of courage.

I will, and yeah she's been a great mom. Thanks but I didn't feel courageous I just felt frustrated enough to do it

[kristin?]

Well I did it....I told my mom, she was very confused at what I told her, but she said that she will accept me no matter what.
She also said that she can't begin to imagine how I feel and that she's sorry for not being able to....
I also told her I was bisexual, another bomb shell. But again she said she loves me,
I guess this is the best possible outcome but I still feel utterly shaken about telling her, the only thing she asks of me is that I go see a therapist and see if I truly want this or that I am just confused.

*Btw sorry if this is poorly written I am still shook up at what I just did*

going to bed need to sleep after this, so exhausted....

Congratulations! I can only wish my parents would be so supportive, you have it very lucky