I'm coming out tonight, I'm tired of this charade I have lived for so long, I know I'll never pass as a girl and frankly at this moment. I. Don't. Care. I 'm having trouble breathing with this weight on my chest. It shouldn't be like this,it shouldn't be something to be afraid of but I can't help but be scared I can't help the tears and the pain. But I refuse it I refuse this role that was handed to me at birth! I am a girl damn it and I will be one if only in my eyes.

This isn't a poor me post, this isn't to have unneeded sympathy or whatever from others, this is just to get my thoughts out somewhere *sigh*

Good luck dear, let us know how it went.

Yeah, I hope it goes well too, but quite frankly I just want it out in the open I really can't stand this. 10 years is far to long of repressing.

Best of luck indeed.

I felt the same way before coming out, and although it's easier said than done please try to relax. After a day of anxiety and no sleep the person I came out too wasn't even bothered, and even mentioned that it would've been easier to understand had I been more relaxed.

So, do yourself a favour, have some tea, put on your favourite song, and go for a nice walk. Relaxing will help the conversation go smoothly.

Thank you for the advice, and yeah I have spent the time since the last post on here just laying down listening to music on repeat and hugging my stuff bear I've had since I was 5. I think I know what I'll say I just hope it comes out right....

You're welcome! I'm glad you're taking the time to relax. That's very important. And try not to stress out whether it will come out correctly or not. Just keep a clear mind, and be prepared to ask informational questions. And maybe throw in a giggle every now and then. People tend to be on edge, when the person they're talking to is as well.

Well I did it....I told my mom, she was very confused at what I told her, but she said that she will accept me no matter what.
She also said that she can't begin to imagine how I feel and that she's sorry for not being able to....
I also told her I was bisexual, another bomb shell. But again she said she loves me,
I guess this is the best possible outcome but I still feel utterly shaken about telling her, the only thing she asks of me is that I go see a therapist and see if I truly want this or that I am just confused.

*Btw sorry if this is poorly written I am still shook up at what I just did*

going to bed need to sleep after this, so exhausted....

Seems like that was a good start, best of luck with telling the others. And congratulations, it is a big step to part with such a big secret.

Your Mum is awesome.

My Mum basically said the same thing but I was too embarrassed to go and see a therapist. Biggest mistake of my life.

She's offering you help, a path to safety. Take it!

BTW congratulations that takes a lot of courage.

Quote from: caitlin_adams on August 23, 2011, 06:43:09 AM
Your Mum is awesome.

My Mum basically said the same thing but I was too embarrassed to go and see a therapist. Biggest mistake of my life.

She's offering you help, a path to safety. Take it!

BTW congratulations that takes a lot of courage.

I will, and yeah she's been a great mom. Thanks but I didn't feel courageous I just felt frustrated enough to do it

Quote from: Sam(my)I am on August 22, 2011, 08:33:20 PM
Well I did it....I told my mom, she was very confused at what I told her, but she said that she will accept me no matter what.
She also said that she can't begin to imagine how I feel and that she's sorry for not being able to....
I also told her I was bisexual, another bomb shell. But again she said she loves me,
I guess this is the best possible outcome but I still feel utterly shaken about telling her, the only thing she asks of me is that I go see a therapist and see if I truly want this or that I am just confused.

*Btw sorry if this is poorly written I am still shook up at what I just did*

going to bed need to sleep after this, so exhausted....

Congratulations! I can only wish my parents would be so supportive, you have it very lucky