Quote from: Ativan on February 15, 2012, 08:24:48 PM
I found out my 3yr psych evaluation is again due by May.
My anxiety level was through the roof, I got caught for it.
After a long talk, I've now settled into a depressed state that I shouldn't be in.
Everything just sucks.
I hate this feeling.
I hate being who I am.
I need my therapist for an entire day.
I just need her. She's that good.
*silently screaming in agony*...
She just sent me an email: '
I know how much you hate this but have to cancel apt 3/15 a much needed vac is on my schedule see you soon!'
->-bleeped-<- her... I don't need this, I don't need her any longer.
'I know how much you hate this'? Is this supposed to make me feel better, because she knows? ->-bleeped-<- her, I don't need this, I would cancel the rest of my appts if it wasn't for the evaluation that starts with her. ->-bleeped-<- her, it can take from three months to six months to get an appt with the right therapist, and then have to go through the whole why BS waste of time sh*t for at least a good month. That's like a major set back, time wise. ->-bleeped-<- her and her 'I know how much you hate this' Sh*t. As it is, I haven't been able to get the number of appts I can have because they have started to overbook like the ->-bleeped-<-ing always banckrupt airlines.
I wish I could just drop the whole place, but the county won't allow for that, unless I have a firm commitment from another place. And like I said, for what I need, it can take 6 months just to get an evaluation appt., and then possibly months before a regular schedule can be set up. Could go for up to a year before being effective. That would mean I would have to rely on my regular doc for psyche meds? Just ->-bleeped-<-ing shoot me so it is done. *walks in front of a truck on the highway...*
Otherwise, oh, I just feel fine. kind of peaceful. I always wonder about the calm. It shouldn't be there. There's to much serenity for who I am.
