MtF Transsexuals and our Penises

[Stephe]

None of the above fits me.

For me sex has always been a projected experience i.e. I mentally feel I am female during sex to get off. Hard to explain but I don't feel -it- during sex however it happens. I haven't used it for it's intended use in 20 years so wouldn't miss it, if I could still have an orgasm. I wouldn't give that up to have it gone though.

I don't like it being there but I don't hate it either. Wish it was gone but not sure it would change my life enough to go through surgery/recovery/risk of never having an orgasm again. For me the whole GID thing is more about being socially accepted as a woman, not what my body looks like when I'm naked.

[Stephe]

Curiously, as a result, I am now much more uncomfortable about my penis. *I* am fine with using it; but I wouldn't want a partner to, nor would I want to use it on them.

Can totally relate to this. My present relationship has ended up being what many people would see as "odd" but it works for both of us

[Janet_Girl]

It isn't gone yet.

Where did I put that scalpel?

[shelley]

It's never really been anything but somewhere to pee out of for me. Although i don't hate it, it's just there and hardly has much use sexually anyways. I can't wait to start HRT so i don't get sudden urges from it in the mornings etc which i really don't like waking up too.

I will most definately have srs in the future though.

[chloe23]

 To me it was also nothing more than to just pee out of. My penis has never felt or looked good on me. I will definitely be happy when it's gone:).

Chloe

[Cyndigurl45]

Once a day in the shower I unhook my PA n guichi wash real good dry off some powder and I don't have to touch that nasty thing for another 23 1/2 hours

[Susan Kay]

3 months post surgery, so some perspective from both sides - the "dark" side I came to, and the "much darker" side I came from. I never hated "It" (is that sort of like the Adamms Family's "Thing"?) I got erections, I penatrated, I orgasmed. "It" served it's designed purpose until maybe 15 years ago when "It" ran out of steam. I still orgasmed, "It" just could not reach penatration quality. That did not bother me a bit for me, but was hard on my wife. Oh my, did I type that?    We made do with what we had. "It" served the important purpose of peeing, though for years I just naturally was more comfortable sitting.

Now that "It" has left the building, I really miss it - NOT!

An update to a previous post I did about post op orgasm; which is nothing new to report. I assume it will come (oh good grief!) but hasn't yet. Natal females I've talked with say they took awhile to reach climax when first trying. They said don't worry about it, it will happen, and that seems to be the majority opinion of other post-ops as well. Also, I do not obsess about it - it just is not so important now that "It" is gone ... well, ingrown. It is wonderful not to be so sex-craved, and having "It" so handy was, well, handy. But it is now nice to not be so stimulated.

Susan Kay

[Tippe]

Between 1 & 2

I have never attempted cutting it off or been suicidal about my body, which confuses me a lot.

On the other hand I sit to pee, often without turning on the lights, I have found myself turning my head away physically not to look and I have found that when I masturbated (pre-HRT) i did picture myself giving another person oral sex - like the penis was not a part of myself.
I was happy when HRT set me free from testosterone driven masturbation-slavery.

I also haven't had satisfactory intimate relations. At age 31 I'm actually just about to go on my first date ever! I feel I need to do some sexual experiments to see if a partner can make me more comfortable about my body. If that doesn't change anything then I'm ready for SRS.

[pretty pauline]

To be completely honest I never hated my penis when I had it, its been gone now for many years, I had my surgery to complete my transition to womanhood and to be able to have a relationship with a man as a straight woman which I could never have if I still had it.
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[cindianna_jones]

ewe! I hated it. I was married, monogomous, and very faithful. I had kids. "It" was disgusting from my earliest memories.

[Amazon D]

If you had an orchiectomy its actually only a big clit then. It can't function like it use too. No more of that nasty male whitish goey crap its all "clear" sailing from then on.

I had an orchie at 3 months HRT and by 9 months HRT mine was totally gone

thank you dr meltzer dec 98

Oh yea to answer your question.. I HATED IT AND IT MADE MY LIFE MISERABLE.. AND I AM SO GLAD ITS GONE  THANK YOU GOD FOR HEARING MY PLEAS

Oh and i was so glad mine was gone i surely never wanted to see another again..

[Adabelle]

I went through a period of life right as I was hitting puberty where I did kinda dislike it. I really considered cutting it off, but I guess I must have realized that I would really hurt myself and my parents would be disappointed so I didn't. I just hid it from me while I showered etc but learned to live with it. I think it's more what it represented than the penis itself.

I haven't had "hate" for it though where I actually tried to cut or anything. I always was too afraid of cutting myself and blood and all that.

Now days I'm between 1 and 2. While I don't hate it, I don't really want it either or like it. It just is. But I neither feel comfortable using it in sex and never really have. I selected 2 for the survey.

[Susan Kay]

It isn't gone yet.

Where did I put that scalpel?

Put down the blade! Step away from the blade! You're scaring the children. And your little friend there. And me. Oh, wait .... no fears about that anymore. OK, as you were!

Susan Kay

[Tammy Hope]

I'm somewhere between 1 and 2. Using it for sex doesn't really interest me, but it's not horrifying. I'm sort of indifferent to it. Having an orgasm is ok but not necessary, I'm more interested in giving than receiving.

I do want SRS eventually, but it's not as pressing a need as my voice and face are.

I think this is a pretty good summation. I don't LOATH it, but i sure as heck don't WANT it. I use it to keep the wife somewhat placated but I'd be much happier to never penetrate in any way again. I've had a few casual encounters on an experimental basis and was very pleased to not have it stimulated by touch or any other action, orgasm or no.

Now, on the other hand - i DESPISE the testicles. THOSE little bastards can't be gone fast enough.

[Susan Kay]

Tammy Hope sums it up pretty well - "It" was there and served some purpose. The other things, I'm so much more happy since they ended up in an incinerator in Philadelphia! Too bad I was unconsious, I would have lit the match!

Susan Kay

[BillieTex]

there has been few and far between the times it worked as designed, i have not interest in seeing it, using it or keeping it.

[Jayne]

I think you should add another option on the poll:

I don't like it but use it frequently even if it makes me feel bad/guilty

I'm under the grip of a very high sex drive & the only way to relieve it is to touch down there, it can take hours to reach the finishing post & then I end up either feeling bad about what i've done or guilty, like i'm a child who's hurt a friend & made them run home crying.

[V M]

I call my penis "The Annoying Dangler" and have more important things to think about

[versuchsanordnung]

Somewhere between 1+2 i would say. I definitely dont want it on me, its no part of me. I dont think about it too much, right now i have other issues to deal with. I felt worse about it when i had something resembling a sex life, but thats ancient history (i remember who i last had sex with, but not in what year.... Quite telling imho)
Isn't the whole "loathe your genitalia" thing a classic male train of thought?  For me penis never had this importance.... It feels wrong, yes, it should not be there, but its not important enough to actually hate it. For me its more like a colostomy bag - not pretty, but it has to be dealt with temporary. I know, the analogy sounds odd at first sight, but a friend of mine had to use one of the things for quite a while. And what she described feeling having this thing attached to her resembled my feelings towards the problem field between my legs quite good.....

[AbraCadabra]

Colostomy bag, eh, I can relate to that. Looking forward to be rid of it, oh yes.

But hate it? As you say, not REALLY important enough, so long it be gone some time soon.

Thanks, I think that was quite to the point :-)

Axelle
PS: Ja da schaungs Frau Baronin, geins :-)