As I'd tell anyone who's taller than 6ft, over 300lbs, and has extremely large hands, feet, and facial bones, is to make sure you don't have Acromegaly, a growth disorder that 1 in 6 people develope sometime in life, even if for a short period. It causes both men and women to develope the "Fred Flinstone" stature and face, and ultimately, the overproduction of growth hormones the disorder produces distroyes the eyesight and various organs. All of the natal women diagnosed with it really do look like badly passing Transmen, and if you have it, the support groups you can join feature real women who look just like you. Of coarse, Trans groups always feature many badly passing folks, and it can help finding another gal to tackle a masculine appearance with together.
I've personally never have been in a romance relationship (and rarely a sexual one) because no matter which way I slice it, the straight-acting, confident, stereotyical "guys" that I fall in love with just have always tols me I'm too ugly and manly to date or be seen as beautiful. The nicer guys have said "Well, you're handsome guy, but if I ever dated a guy, they'dd have to look like a real girl." Not looking female effects young people the most, as the most bullying occurs then, and because many natal females get veey masculine looking later in life, allowing for more freedom on the Trans side. I say hang in there and try so many things to immerse yourself into until you can afford facial surgery or you find new ways to look more female. I would suggest big hair, big purses, a grand image. It's what Italian girls do to compensate for their dad's honkers, chins, and manly stature. Unless you want to, I'd def stay away from a ->-bleeped-<- image though - you gotta make sure theres a lot of natural colors and styles about your look if you want to look most in place and not stand out.
