I've actually been fighting with my name for the longest. At first, I was just going by the shortened version off my middle name (Ren) but realized I did NOT want that as a first name. I tried going by Seth as it was what my mother would have named me but...it just didn't feel right.
Then I tried Angel. It was okay, but not me.
After some digging for my heritage and chatting up my great grandma, I found out that my great, great grandpa was full blooded Cherokee and that was why the Native side of my family actually speaks to me at family reunions (my racist 'white' side of the family segregates them like jack asses and will flip ->-bleeped-<- if any of the 'innocent white children' go near the 'dirty red folk'. -_-). Apparently, it's ALSO the reason a lot of my 'white' family hates me. o_O' Cause I'm 'tainted' by 'red man' blood. >_>
I said ->-bleeped-<- them. lol
So, in honor of my grandpa (who I have some faint memories of, since he use to visit me all the time when I was little and would tell me stories while I was on his lap), I have decided to go with Sequoya. I honestly love the name and it feels like ME. Even shortened (Seqya pronounced Sick-ya by friends), it's just...me. Before I ever realized my heritage was so strong, I was always drawn to Native culture. I couldn't explain it, but since I was little I fell in love with their beliefs and ways.
Ironic thing is that one of my roomies claims I can't possibly be part Cherokee at all. -_- He says 'You're too pale!'. I just laugh at him because my skin naturally has a darker tint, however, I haven't been outside for more than 10 minutes at a time in over 15 years. Of course I'm not as dark as I use to be! Stick me outside for a hour, though? BAM. It's obvious where I come from. XD
My therapist told me to think of my name as a tattoo. To pick something I would not regret and could live with.
As my beliefs are spiritual (hell, I'm thinking about working on dreads despite goin for a management major) and I feel increasingly drawn to my bloodline, I couldn't pass up a name that called to me.