I think I'm always going to hold some bitterness towards the doctor that put my on T when I was in my early 20's. Transition would be much easier if I had not taken T, but I didn't have anyone to talk to in confidence at the time, there was no Internet, and I thought taking T would make me "normal" - ha. So now I have to deal with what most MtF have to deal with in regards to voice and facial hair, though perhaps not to the extent as some, since I was not very faithful at taking my T.