Being a transsexual girl is so lackluster...

[Mahsa Tezani]

My boyfriend and I have had several arguments about where I am going. He wants more than anything to be a normal girl, even though it's invetible that I dip into my former gay boy persona. You know, the diva worshippin, techno lovin, I CAN DO YOUR MAKEUP, type of chick. The gay inside me is so powerful, it is made of uranium.

But the more I get into drag...the more I realize I essentially have two personas. My daytime  persona and my nighttime persona. I just don't see the point of going through transition and living a normal boring life.

I love dolling myself up... that is so much fun. I keep thinking maybe I just need to go back to the Castro...or even better, West Hollywood.

[stldrmgrl]

Do what makes you happy.  It's your life, it's who you are.  I don't think anyone should feel as if they cannot express who they are, and furthermore I don't feel anyone should change who they are for anyone or anything.  Enjoy the hell outta life doing whatever it is that makes it enjoyable.

[Torn1990]

i love weho<3 i'm more from the long beach area but I liked to visit.
totally what she said above, your identity is stronger because it is unique, i'm glad you don't let people try to tell you otherwise. I think everyone's identity is fluid, some people just have the ability to solidify their identities infront of people more easily then others can. 

[MacKenzie]

  Mahsa don't take this the wrong way but have you considered that maybe you are not really a transsexual and maybe just a drag queen who took it to the next level? There is nothing wrong with that alot of non-transsexual people transition and end up happy but you don't seem to be happy as a transwoman, it seems like you miss your former gay male life style and might be regretting your decision to transition.


  I know you said you don't believe in therapy but I think it would be a good idea to seek out a good gender therapist and talk about this.

 

  Good Luck! xo

 

[Mahsa Tezani]

  Mahsa don't take this the wrong way but have you considered that maybe you are not really a transsexual and maybe just a drag queen who took it to the next level? There is nothing wrong with that alot of non-transsexual people transition and end up happy but you don't seem to be happy as a transwoman, it seems like you miss your former gay male life style and might be regretting your decision to transition.

You know what... I'd knew you say this. LOL, you fell right in.

Yeah hun, I am a transsexual sorry....

[MsDazzler]

  Mahsa don't take this the wrong way but have you considered that maybe you are not really a transsexual and maybe just a drag queen who took it to the next level? There is nothing wrong with that alot of non-transsexual people transition and end up happy but you don't seem to be happy as a transwoman, it seems like you miss your former gay male life style and might be regretting your decision to transition.


  I know you said you don't believe in therapy but I think it would be a good idea to seek out a good gender therapist and talk about this.

 

  Good Luck! xo

Umm.... one can be a transsexual and be a drag queen. Those two categories aren't mutually exclusive.

[Emi]

well....i must admitt one thing...the straigh woman lifetyle  seems so ..so...soooo boring  to me too...luckily i am a kind of pansexual / bisexual / ¿lesbian?  so...my place will be always in the LGTB community

[Ultimus]

I'm just trying to understand you better because you are such an interesting and strong character. While the majority of transgendered women say, "I have always known that I was a girl stuck in a guy's body," it seems to me that you are saying, "I feel as if I am a homosexual male in a female's body." Let me know if that is off base.

I don't think there is anything intrinsically wrong with identifying as a gay male who prefers the external appearance and social position of a woman, which seems to be the case with you.

[MacKenzie]

You know what... I'd knew you say this. LOL, you fell right in.

So your baiting me? Lol that's mature of you.

Yeah hun, I am a transsexual sorry....

I would get a second opinion hun because most of your post seem to indicate other wise. Doesn't mean your not transgender and that you can't transition, you just don't seem happy this way is all i'm saying.
 

[Mahsa Tezani]

So your baiting me? Lol that's mature of you.

I would get a second opinion hun because most of your post seem to indicate other wise. Doesn't mean your not transgender and that you can't transition, you just don't seem happy this way is all i'm saying.

ohhhhh Asha...you're so awesome.

Nice turtleneck....

[Mahsa Tezani]

Umm.... one can be a transsexual and be a drag queen. Those two categories aren't mutually exclusive.

We aren't suppose to talk about that here.

[Torn1990]

Umm.... one can be a transsexual and be a drag queen. Those two categories aren't mutually exclusive.

I wouldn't completely disagree with you, but many can blur the lines for themselves and i choose not to judge other trans identifying women on which avenues they choose to feel fulfilled in. Also, i worry this language you use is a form of gate keeping that really shuts out identities of various trans women more then anything.
Let me introduce you to Sonique.
She is a drag queen and definitely identifies with the transgender identity. She's even on hrt.






Drag is a performance, and it can be self defined.
Many transgender women found themselves accessing drag queen spaces because they were safe spaces where they can express their gender in a certain way especially before language and community we use was even available. And to think that some drag queens don't attribute their drag to their gender is kind of offensive.

[MsDazzler]

We aren't suppose to talk about that here.

oops, cross my heart and never mention drag queen again. It is such an unfathomable word. gasp

[Mahsa Tezani]

oops, cross my heart and never mention drag queen again. It is such an unfathomable word. gasp

Even though we were called that the other day by someone here.

*gasp*

[MacKenzie]

ohhhhh Asha...you're so awesome.

  Yeah ikr! 

Nice turtleneck....

I don't know what that means but Mkay lol.

I think I hit a nerve. 

We aren't suppose to talk about that here.

  I wish you wouldn't it's kind of annoying. 

[Mahsa Tezani]

  I wish you wouldn't it's kind of annoying.

Yeah... I am gonna talk about my gay boy even more now.

[Jamie D]

My boyfriend and I have had several arguments about where I am going. He wants more than anything to be a normal girl, even though it's invetible that I dip into my former gay boy persona. You know, the diva worshippin, techno lovin, I CAN DO YOUR MAKEUP, type of chick. The gay inside me is so powerful, it is made of uranium.

But the more I get into drag...the more I realize I essentially have two personas. My daytime  persona and my nighttime persona. I just don't see the point of going through transition and living a normal boring life.

I love dolling myself up... that is so much fun. I keep thinking maybe I just need to go back to the Castro...or even better, West Hollywood.

Who says girls can't be flamboyant?  Why says transwomen have to be boring?

You are obviously of two spirits.  It is what makes you, you.

[MacKenzie]

Yeah... I am gonna talk about my gay boy even more now.

Your really a gay boy? Well thanks for clearing that up. 

[Mahsa Tezani]

Your really a gay boy? Well thanks for clearing that up. 

I am not.

But you know... I would say I am one just for you Asha...you're my friend, remember?

[MacKenzie]

I am not.

But you know... I would say I am one just for you Asha...you're my friend, remember?

  Yeah BFF!!