@Hayzer12: Thanks. The thing is my mother can't talk about trans stuff for too long, it upsets her too much. And whenever there is company either at my grandmothers house or my house, they don't want anyone to know that I'm trans, their embarrassed and/or ashamed, I don't know. And another thing is, people in my family don't share secrets, so not everyone in my family knows I'm trans. I don't even know who knows I'm trans in my family. I think my immediate family knows though, but relatives that live in other states don't know and my mom and grandmother don't want them to know, it's a secret. If that got out, I'd be in trouble.
QuoteAlso, I feel like you have changed a bit on T... You still haven't taken pics from the same angle as your pre-T ones, but I still see a few years of age in regards to your appearance in this year on T.
Thank you. I forget what angel I take pics from and end up taking pics in the opposite angle, lol.
QuoteI don't know what to say, but I really do - again - wish you all the best. I didn't hear your voice clip though, so I cannot tell you whether I believe your voice passes or not.
Thanks. Yeah, I just took that down, I thought everyone was done listening to it.
@insideontheoutside: I totally understand about you not wanting to get on T b/c of hair lost and some other changes your not into. Losing my hair was one of the big things about not wanting to take T, but my solution to that is a wig. Hopefully no one will be able to tell I'm wearing a wig. I still freak out and worry about my hair loss. I worry everyday about it.
I'm sorry that it's hard for you to pass pre-t. I rarely passed pre-t too.
QuoteI don't think you're "whining" or whatever, I think you're just frustrated
Yes, this is true, I am very frustrated. Like I've said before, when people I haven't seen in years don't notice anything and tell me I look exactly the same, it's frustrating.
QuoteAlso, if you're in a situation where you haven't been able to get a job and you're stuck living under your family's roof, I don't think yelling/demanding they conform to your views on the matter is a good idea. I remember you posting that they were uber religious, etc. I think that would cause you more grief, so I say keep doing what you're doing there and keep looking for work so you can get the hell out of there and reboot your life.
My mom has told me that moving out would be the best thing, that way I could make a fresh new start where no one knows me as female. She says too many people know me here. I don't think too many people know my here though. My mom has told me many time she would never kick me out and I can stay and long as I want. But we both know moving out would be the best thing. But I can't seem to find a job and need repairs on my car that I can't afford so if I don't get a job soon to pay for the repairs my car has to come off the road and then my mom might have to sell my car.
QuoteAs for the voice ... yeah it pretty much sounds like the last time you posted a clip. I'd say maybe on the phone I'd think you were a teenage guy. In person though, I'd think you were just a dude with a voice on the higher range. There's plenty of FTM guys I've seen (including some of the more well known guys who have been on T for a very long time) who just have naturally higher range voices. Maybe yours will drop more, maybe not but don't let that alone be the deal breaker for you. I think once you get out on your own you can build that confidence up to actually correct people when they misgender you.
Yeah, it sucks it still hasn't got'n deeper since the last clip I posted months ago. The thing about my voice is that I don't want to be mistaken as a gay guy since my voice is still high. I really hope it gets deeper.
QuoteI think once you get out on your own you can build that confidence up to actually correct people when they misgender you.
I hope so.
